Momory vanishing...
He has the key which opens her heart. He took it n vanished to another planet...with all the promises he had made to her.
She told herself she would not believe in guys' promises easily, but after she met him, she know tat she cant do it. She felt so safe when she is with him, she didnt told him tat. The world feel so small, yet so beautiful..
He had left her after tat day<080607>, he say they will be friends and he treasure this friendship. She really wanted to believe him, but she knew it wont be possible. She thought she was brave that day, that day when he said all those hurtful words. She didnt cried like she was supposed to, not because she didnt treasure the relationship with him, it is because she cant faced it. It was so sudden, everything seems so blessed, with all the promises he gives. He made her world so colourful that day, but also end it with his own hand. It happens on the same day, how can she faced it.
He chose to leave her, because there is very little place in his heart to hold her in. He is still recovering from his past. She really wanted to show to him that she would live better off without him, but she is not able to do it. She is brave in the day, felt strong and accept his reason from leaving her. But everything changes at night, loneliness cover her, hatered knock on her door. She missed him, miss those nights when they chat over the night. Missed his voice. She cried through the night...it is not that easy like she thought. knowing him for such a short time, every moves he had was so clear in the memory. The more she missed him, the more she hates him. She hates him for vanishing, she cant contact him unneccessary. Though he told her before calling him don need reason. But she must rem that was when he still love her. Now everything changed, they are friends like he said, but she knew that they are like strangers now.
Every single minute is taken away by him, she become unsure whether she can go back to her original life. She become frustrated when he called, not because she had forget the memory, its because she doesnt wan to show him that she still haven put down the momory. looking at the nights with e stars, she cant control her tears. Once before, they feel so comfortable to look at, with the promises he gave her. but lookin at them now make her feel pointless.
She become more and more unsure how much the promises worth, over many nights, she repeats wat he had said. She smiled at her sillyness, laugh at her weakness. She had forget how it feels to miss him, cos he is in her mind all the while. It is not meaningful anymore, she only feels that he wont be doing e same thing as her. He had forgot her n live on, she is just a scenery, a place where he had passed by. It is not worth to stay...She cares about wat he says, the promises which once sound so sweet and nice become so scary, every single day, they make the world so incomplete... he would not no how much he had influence her life, he would not realise that he is holding on to her key.
She missed him, but she no its not possible between them, because she missed him in her memory which cant be wiped away....Only possible in her memory.Its over between them, she knew she only needs some more time...some more time....
