Words sometimes cant help to express your feelings.

Words sometimes cant help to express your feelings.

Really don know how to express my feelings in blog sometimes, after my last post here, i often look at the blank page and thought of wat i am goin to express here but end up writtin nothin.

When you feel sad, real sad, it is more than words to express, that is why i hesitate to write down my feelings for the previous days. I thought of writtin more about him, who is in my previous memory but I understand tat if i do more things which is related about him, i would end up hurting myself more. In the past, i thought tat he had actually broken the promises he made and recently i started to doubt on my thinkin. Did he really promise anything? Nop, even if he had, the promises had already gone sour and weight as light as the feather. I find tat the best word to describe about us is fullstop. Short, simple, nice and clear cut.

When you end a relationship, no one is at wrong, no one at all, it is only who don treasure who. He just only found someone who he thought tat he wanted to treasure, so wats wrong with tat. Nah...rubbish. Ok. I am just givin my self some where to come down the stage before embarrasing myself further. haha. Nvm. Really a fullstop. Just like my pair of star earrings which broken into two parts last night, a nice fullstop although i really like tat pair of earrings.

Well, today go find my friend jinhua at lot one at 4 something, she is doin her homework there, so i brought my laptop along to play games.haha. At the same time, Wanting sms me and ask mii whether i wan go eat dinner, but just meet jinhua and we are still waiting for another friend of us to come so i thought of maybe wanting can come to library to find us then later we can have dinner together. She dont wan to join us, but only her go eat dinner herself cos Sandra cant meet her as she is workin.

I felt bad about it for not accompany her to eat cos i can hear from her voice tat she is not feelin happy when i called her and ask her where she was. U see. i am very sensitive de, i told her tat i am at library and when she is also at library, she don even wan to come find mii. So i thought maybe she is really not happy and sad over something. She wanted to be alone tat time, or maybe she wanted someone to be there but no one right. Me with my friends, Sandra workin and chaileng too. Really sorry about tat, but 2moro we two are goin bugis yeah.haha.my off day too. so maybe she can share with me more. Hope so. Ok i will end here for today.