Its time..

encourage by friends...thanks all my girl friends...u all e best.haha.listenin to all my craps and emo stuff. N u all also complain about the emo standard of my blog content...so after reflectin on it, i thought i am givin my self too much chance to get emo and writin emo stuff over and over again is not doin myself anygood. It actually makes me stay in my ground, so i must learn to let go...every thing Now. start afresh girl. don worry anyone and don thing over it. no poin anyway...it takes so long to say this. start afresh... Move on everyone...2moro is a better day...bla bla bla..^.^

What do i need?

Sometimes...tats mii

Sometimes i am puzzled by what i really need. When i was at school today, i feel that i really to go home and sleep before i collapsed. Just feel so tired and sleepy today. I think too much brain cells were killed during the UT in the morning. When i reach home, i really went to sleep although i am not feelin very sleepy at tat time. Haha...so just for e sake of sleepin as i promise myself i will get myself some sleep...but the main thing is i forget to set my alarm clock, so when i wake up, it was after 9 pm. the funny thing is i thought it is only 7 pm. so i was quite happy with myself tat i am able to get up without alarm clock.ahah. when i saw the time shown on the clock in e livin room, i was like so sian...tat feelin came back again...wat do i need ? do i really need to sleep for that long...i can use the time to do other things. And wat for i sleep for so long and now i cant go sleep because i am 100% energetic. haha...sometimes i just get upset over myself just because of very small things... tats mii i thing...tend to think alot which leads to my life a struggle. Isn's it better to be a happy go lucky person...

failure

Failure?

Failure really will only remain as a failure when you know where went wrong but did not ammend it. Plan laziness is my strongest weak point, talk no action added to it and half way giving up. really fraustrated over myself, when will i ever do myself proud. over time and time of failure, i regret it and promise not to do it again,but in the end everything came back and i am doin e same mistake.

lookin at those who went to the same poly like me, i really look down on myself more. I was in the second class in sec school, study so many subjects and use so much money to take the o papers. Taking another language( higher chinese) is a wasted of money, didnt manage to go to JC, so the energy and money put in takin O level chinese went down straight to the drain.

lookin at my friends who manage to do well and get into what they choose, i really don feel like lookin at them. it is a matter of self confidence here, they did not laugh at mii but i am laughin at myself.why and why. I had being asking myself over and over again why i landed up in this situation. why wont i do better? I hate myself for this...half hearted and no determination.

some thing need to be done girl...need to be done