failure

Failure?

Failure really will only remain as a failure when you know where went wrong but did not ammend it. Plan laziness is my strongest weak point, talk no action added to it and half way giving up. really fraustrated over myself, when will i ever do myself proud. over time and time of failure, i regret it and promise not to do it again,but in the end everything came back and i am doin e same mistake.

lookin at those who went to the same poly like me, i really look down on myself more. I was in the second class in sec school, study so many subjects and use so much money to take the o papers. Taking another language( higher chinese) is a wasted of money, didnt manage to go to JC, so the energy and money put in takin O level chinese went down straight to the drain.

lookin at my friends who manage to do well and get into what they choose, i really don feel like lookin at them. it is a matter of self confidence here, they did not laugh at mii but i am laughin at myself.why and why. I had being asking myself over and over again why i landed up in this situation. why wont i do better? I hate myself for this...half hearted and no determination.

some thing need to be done girl...need to be done