Let me scan through

Let Miii Scan through...

I also not sure when did i start to like my e last word of my name-"xia" with e meaning as rosy cloud. Think of it, being a cloud, i can be anything and warm towards anything. haha. Well...Nice to feel tat way now n then, it will makes my life more meaningful yeah.haha.

Let me see, in the past i thought i like raining, i like to let it fall on me (of cos when there is nothing important which i carried). As i always choose to believe tat the cool raindrop would rinse away all e unhappiness. Listenin to the raindrops fallin is like clicking on the backspace on our keyboard. Well. tat will be e past, as now i don really like to feel tat way as i understand that no matter how heavy e rain can be, in the end troubles are still there.

Now i don really like raining tat much, i began to fall in love with the scene after raining. Not e sun rising up afte rain, just the fresh feelings of the world which seems to be washed clean by the rain. Even the breeze feels so cooling, even e air can be so clean. Maybe it gives me a feeling of fresh and clean, just like a new beginning. mmm.Life is full of this n that, things which u like tend to changes over time when you met with different stages of people.

Among the leaves, i like autumm leaves e most. looking at them drop down makes me sad but looking at them shine under the sun makes me feel so warm. Ok. this post is really not gettin anywhere, not for u guys to no more about me but for myself to know where i am. So people out there, u can choose to close one eye or both also can.

Being realistic

So how much does 2 semester differs?



let me see...if i say the first week during the first semester, i got all As for all the modules. But now for e first week of the 2nd semester, i had being getting 2 Bs le. ok. see the difference? haha. Let me eleborate further.



Having a new class for 2nd semester, i really feel the tension. Not the tension between new classmates, it is a non-verbal tension. It is wat i felt in my heart only. This new class is very different from previous one, everyone present so well. Really stress sometimes when need to compete silently for a good grade, in a class where everyone are able to show that they are discussing well and present so well. It is kind of hard to get a good grade like before.


Past friends given up?

Sometimes being more tensed up with the problem, i choose not to go for breakouts but went to have lunch with my new classmates after we had finished doing our work. This makes our work easier when we are able to go back class together and do work together. But i did not forget my past classmates, really! In my life, i treasure friendship the most after my family. So my friends please dont doubt on me when i say i treasure our friendship. When i say i miss e times when we laugh together and joke around, dont ever doubt on me.

Friends out there, i really apologised for my behavior of stayin away with u guys. I havin realistic, really, too much things makes me lost trust in friends believin tat they will be there for you no matter wat. I also not sure when did i start to tell myself tat friends are not forever, they will leave u one day. Betrayin by friends makes mii feel tat way so please don blame me for being too realistic. I only understand tat i treasure my friends as long as i am with them. Overall, i really treasure friends.