Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Its so so long time le.

Its so so long time le





I cant remember the last time i am with Hua le.
Since she start her poly life,
and i start my new semester.
We had not seen each other le.
Who to blame?
Its me.
I am selfish cos i still mind e incidents.

Rem My this year birthday incident which u planned for me?
Rem that incident when I need to help u cover things from ur mom?
Rem my last year birthday?
Did I tell u i have never cried before with my friends?
Well...
I cried the most when this incidents happened.
Sometimes all these unhappy memories will leave scars.
Which also give my self the excuse of not looking for u.

I missed u.
That is the only thing i can say.
But i am afraid tat incidents happen again.

I am not going to let my memories with u be ruined by al that. How long had we being friends.
I am scared when after so many unhappy stuffs happens,
i still haven find the reason behind all these tearful times.
I often find myself asking, am i in the wrong to accept all these?
Nop...I am not.
I am afraid to call ur home looking for u.
Cos i rem that time when ur mum ask me y i look for u, when i called for you.

I am sad, tats wat i feel.

I have thought of it a lot these days,
I realise i cant hold it all to myself.
I need to say out somewhere.
Friends can over come everything.
So I am not goin to let the unhappy times to build a wall between us.
I know i am being selfish these days.
U make the effort to look for me.
But i actually chose avoidance.


May our friendship last as long as forever.
:)