My friday

My Friday





Guess wat am i doin now?
I am currently inside CCK library typing my blog and listening to music.
With a bag of Oreo biscuit in my bag, and at an easy reach to put into my mouth.
Waiting for wanting to finish work, she tell me she will reach at around 7 like tat.
I reach around 5 pm at CCK here and don feel like going home.
Dear go drink with classmates. All guys, so i am not goin also.

I miss ting, though i have not told her tat.
That day i left early after meet her, i know i am in wrong.
Initiating to eat dinner together but end up leaving her with Chaileng and Sandra.
But i really miss her. Tats y just now ask her for dinner today again.

Today menstruation 2nd day, dont really feel energetic and in a state.
Just now thought of going home straight after school. But helo people,
today is friday. U are suppose to find someone to enjoy it with.
So i dont mind to wait at library for Ting. So long time didnt see her le.

Its not only mii...

Its not only mii...




Its not only mii that is involved in this relationship.
I complain tat i am sacrificing a lot in this relationship, and yearn for being single again.
But like wat dear said, i am being really selfish.
I am only pitying for myself, but i did not feel sorry for dear.
When i think that i am losing a lot of time to be with my friends,
dear also did not have any time with his friends.
Its true, both of us have to sacrifice something in the relationship, and i only thought i am the one sacrificing.

Dear always meet his best friend for dinner but after starting this relationship, he had not have the time to meet up for even a meal. Every single day, dear will sent me home, whether it is after school or after work. only on those days when he is sick or really very tired, i will go home by myself.

I am being really selfish, maybe i am too used to dear sending me home safely that i actually forgot that he is sacrificing his own rest time. I am taking things for granted. Really. When i tell dear that i think we are seeing each other too often le, and should see each other less often. I forget the times when i am at work and sms dear that i am very bored at work, and dear will come down to accompany me even when is out with his friends. And how can i forget the time when i am down with rashes on my face and neck, u actually left your best friend's birthday celebration early, just to come down to my work place to help me apply the medicine, as i complain that the rashes makes me scratch my neck and face.

I feel so not matured when i hug so tightly to u, crying and say i feel so tired with this relationship and you say that you are also, and you are actually consoling me and tell me that all this takes time, it takes time to adapt to each other's life and everything.

I am selfish, all i think is only me, only that i am e one suffering and losing my freedom. I complain tat we are seeing each other too much, especially when we will see each other every day at school, sunday you will come find me at work after you work finish. But i did not feel for you. I did not think that you wanted to spent days out with me, not only see each other at school. we only have two days off for each other every week, like wat you said, we had being together for 4 months le, but how many days did we have for each other to go out dating. Sorry dear.