home sweet home

Home sweet home





After 4 days of camp in school,
I am really exhausted.
One part of me really missed dear.
Another part of me really wan to go home and sleep.

Being the team leader during the camp really means
a lot of extra work.
I have 8 team members in my team.
Just nice, 4 girls, 4 guys.
We really do have a lot of fun.
And it really means a lot when my team members
sent me MSG after camp, to thank me for their
3 days in camp.

During camp, some of the major activities we have
includes Amazing race(around singapore), Tele match(around RP our school), Food Quest(around jurong point) and Mass dance.

Back on Friday night, reach home around 9.30
and celebrates father's birthday.
I think i am really too tired & falling sick till now,
that i destroy everyone's mood in celebrating.
Haiz....

I slept from 11 on friday night till 3.30 pm on sat afternoon.
Dear laugh at mii for sleeping so long.
After tat i go meet Dear.
when i see him, the first thing i wan to do is to laugh.
WHEHAAHAHAHHA
Dear actually cut his hair till so short, that makes his face look so round.
whahhahahahah.....
Actually i quite envy dear de.
He always give me a confident feeling in everything he do.
Which is something that i really lacks of.
Dear finished his PP presentation and he is quite confident with his performance.
I really feel happy for him, but somehow feel sick when i think of my own performance.

Oh well.
Now i am sick le.
cough cough, sneeze sneeze, yawns...ZZZ

Its kind of long...

Its kind of long...

Oh well too long didnt blog le.

No new photos to upload. cos my laptop went for servicing due to mother board problem.

But i have so many photos want to upload. mmm.

well. That have to wait till this Wed when Acer servicing call me.

Haiz... Here it comes, my money all gone.

cos i am not planning to buy new one, so i go with the idea of just repairing my motherboard,

and thinking of buying warranty for the remaining 1 and half years till 3rd year of school.

= near to 800 dollars to spent.

Anyway like dear say money earnt, money spent.

Haiz. But still kind of sad. nop! is very sad. ...

Any way.

Rem the happy things can le.

Happy 5months anniversary to DEAR

Love you forever and ever.

My friday

My Friday





Guess wat am i doin now?
I am currently inside CCK library typing my blog and listening to music.
With a bag of Oreo biscuit in my bag, and at an easy reach to put into my mouth.
Waiting for wanting to finish work, she tell me she will reach at around 7 like tat.
I reach around 5 pm at CCK here and don feel like going home.
Dear go drink with classmates. All guys, so i am not goin also.

I miss ting, though i have not told her tat.
That day i left early after meet her, i know i am in wrong.
Initiating to eat dinner together but end up leaving her with Chaileng and Sandra.
But i really miss her. Tats y just now ask her for dinner today again.

Today menstruation 2nd day, dont really feel energetic and in a state.
Just now thought of going home straight after school. But helo people,
today is friday. U are suppose to find someone to enjoy it with.
So i dont mind to wait at library for Ting. So long time didnt see her le.

Its not only mii...

Its not only mii...




Its not only mii that is involved in this relationship.
I complain tat i am sacrificing a lot in this relationship, and yearn for being single again.
But like wat dear said, i am being really selfish.
I am only pitying for myself, but i did not feel sorry for dear.
When i think that i am losing a lot of time to be with my friends,
dear also did not have any time with his friends.
Its true, both of us have to sacrifice something in the relationship, and i only thought i am the one sacrificing.

Dear always meet his best friend for dinner but after starting this relationship, he had not have the time to meet up for even a meal. Every single day, dear will sent me home, whether it is after school or after work. only on those days when he is sick or really very tired, i will go home by myself.

I am being really selfish, maybe i am too used to dear sending me home safely that i actually forgot that he is sacrificing his own rest time. I am taking things for granted. Really. When i tell dear that i think we are seeing each other too often le, and should see each other less often. I forget the times when i am at work and sms dear that i am very bored at work, and dear will come down to accompany me even when is out with his friends. And how can i forget the time when i am down with rashes on my face and neck, u actually left your best friend's birthday celebration early, just to come down to my work place to help me apply the medicine, as i complain that the rashes makes me scratch my neck and face.

I feel so not matured when i hug so tightly to u, crying and say i feel so tired with this relationship and you say that you are also, and you are actually consoling me and tell me that all this takes time, it takes time to adapt to each other's life and everything.

I am selfish, all i think is only me, only that i am e one suffering and losing my freedom. I complain tat we are seeing each other too much, especially when we will see each other every day at school, sunday you will come find me at work after you work finish. But i did not feel for you. I did not think that you wanted to spent days out with me, not only see each other at school. we only have two days off for each other every week, like wat you said, we had being together for 4 months le, but how many days did we have for each other to go out dating. Sorry dear.

Last day of emptiness

Last day of emptiness

Dear coming back today, later go fetch him in e evening.
Last night when he called, i am kind of sad to hear his voice.
I feel bad, he sound so sick and yet i make him worry and not happy.

Just thought that maybe will join the Alif group of friends after work at the coffeeshop.
But didnt tell Dear about it, but at least i tell him e truth when he call.
I know its not very nice for me to hang out with a group of guys so late,
but seriously i view them as friends rather than guys... lol...
Maybe i should really change my mindset now le...
I cant treat guys just like how i treat my girlfriends, there is still a barrier there...
Though everyone talk about trust of opposite partners, but there should still have basic
respect for each other. If not wife will hang out at guy friends house though she is married, and girls who are attached will stay out with guy friends out late at night.
Trust is one thing, but respect is another thing that love should covered.
Miss dear a lot...

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Now workin on my proposed idea for teacher's day celebration in school
Thought of the voting system and wishes with hand prints on a big piece of white cloth for
all students to participate.
Still workin on it...
But school only opens after Teacher's day which falls on first of sept.
I hope my work wont be wasted the worth.

(18th birth)

Misses

Misses-2nd day without u






Dear just called me, on phone with him.
If its not Vincent de phone which he use, i wouldnt have hang up.
I really miss his voice. Its e first time i hear his voice today.
I miss him, told him tat i would go fetch him on thurs when he come back.
I wan to hug him e first thing he come back.
Dear sick le... really worry about him.
I know its me tat spread the flu to him de,
before he go Malaysia, he is already sick le.
Hope he take care of himself...

Luckily he is not far away from me. we stil at the same block in our new class.
just now sms with dear, then i tell him tat he same class with one of our girl in our class and other people who he
may knew before de...
thought he will joke with mii or wat. cos i everytime say he n this girl more compatible.
but i am touched with his reply.
cos he reply mii this
"Is my class far from you"

I miss dear...
My second day without you...