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I am searchin n finding n found tat i am beyond my own control. I do so many stupid stuff, believing people who i should not believe. Doin stuff which i shouldnt do. I lost it, my way forward. i lost track of how fast the time goes. Kind of calm in e surface but deep in my heart i had lost my way. I became more n more not knowin who should i believe and start to like lookin at blank pages of the new blog post n put my feelings in it without writting them down.

My friend laugh at me, she says i like to write my blog with content which is connected to Him. Well, i told her tat i did not write anything about him since e day i saw him with his new girl friend's photo on msn. I dont deny tat i had been lookin at blank posts now and then but dont dare to write any thing down. Writting them down would become a fullstop between us, even friendship. Tat would mean i had nothin to do with him any more. After a week now, i write this down. A fullstop. We had not being contacting each other for a long time. of cos he would be happy for tat la. dots.

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