Try-deep thought...

Try

My cousins- two of them.
My once so caring cousins.
2 days before i had a chat with one of them online.
though both of them may be in china at e moment
n get married and have their own children and home.
.....

But they still, they did STILL
believe in mii, they always will encourage mii
n say they know i will always try my best.
.....

I am in deep thought everytime i chat with them.
no matter how many years had been apart,
they still care about my progress.
.....
one my cousin says that "if u didnt try, how would you no u cant do it"
I rem when they had been there for mii when i start primary school,
with my parents who are uneducated, these 2 cousins taught mii
most of e morale values and education.

......
They brought my brother n mii to e first library
exploration in our life after
we step into Singapore. Bringing their future wife along,
i felt e happiness of
a family goin out together. My parents didnt even go to library be4,
if not becos of my
cousins, i think i would not fall in love with e enjoyment of the novels.
The type of love i have for them is not easy to
express, it somehow become a gratitude towards them.
.....
I suppose i did afraid to call them- long distance call,
sometimes avoided to talk to them on phone.
......
Dont mistaken mii
.....
I am just
just too embarrase to face them.
Listening to their encouragements, i felt heavy- in my heart.
Wat had i done after they left mii, did i done some thing proud.
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NO. I told them how unsuccessful i had become, but they
did not agree with mii.
they believed in mii n wanted mii to try.

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tears rises to the eyelid.
swallowed it into the small corner in my own little space.

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Deed thought....