"I wanted a place to put my hat"

"I wanted a place to put my hat"

I really mind when u guys talk about my fats.
Really, I tried to go along with u all...But I cant force to smile.
I am keen to lose weight, so please don push me.
seriously it does not feel good to become the subject to talk tonight.

Recently, I am just too shrewed up.
Over studies, a totally new tension rises when year 2 starts.
It may be due to my expectation, but it can be because of my own seeing of my shortage.
I am tired, emotionally tired.
I wanted to drink, I wanted to shout, I wanted to just stay in the library.

Once again, i am looking back into becoming a "one Person" self.
Tired, thats the only word I can think of.
I am finding myself hurting and dropping downwards as i set high expectation for myself.
I wanted to study, wanted to study, wanted to reach my expectation.
But am i moving further away?
Its only 2nd week of the new semester, I am already tired.

I wanted to lose weight, thats another of my expectation.
But I cant even see any result, i am eating lesser n lesser.
Food doesn't appeal to me in the 'good' way.
But neither does anything.
I wanted to be alone sometimes, with no expectations, no goals, no nothing.
NOTHING FROM MII!!!

I just want to move along with no one realizing that I belong to this society.
(I may not be having any links for this post, do pardon me)