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I am searchin n finding n found tat i am beyond my own control. I do so many stupid stuff, believing people who i should not believe. Doin stuff which i shouldnt do. I lost it, my way forward. i lost track of how fast the time goes. Kind of calm in e surface but deep in my heart i had lost my way. I became more n more not knowin who should i believe and start to like lookin at blank pages of the new blog post n put my feelings in it without writting them down.

My friend laugh at me, she says i like to write my blog with content which is connected to Him. Well, i told her tat i did not write anything about him since e day i saw him with his new girl friend's photo on msn. I dont deny tat i had been lookin at blank posts now and then but dont dare to write any thing down. Writting them down would become a fullstop between us, even friendship. Tat would mean i had nothin to do with him any more. After a week now, i write this down. A fullstop. We had not being contacting each other for a long time. of cos he would be happy for tat la. dots.

THE END

School reopen 2moro

School reopen 2moro lei. SIanzzz....rather earn money. lol.

New semester

New group of friends

New facilitator

New class

New way of engagement

New feeling

All e best to me.

So here goes my 100 bucks...

So here goes my 100 bucks...


2day die die also must spent some of my salary before school reopen. Yeah, agree with me ba. Need to treat myself good de ma. Work for 3 weeks le, so nvm to spent so much in one day. Wanting n her sis n me meet at CCk de plateform and off we go to Bugis to shop, she so reluctant to go cos she just went there recently n had spent an amount at there too.





In e end still went with me and in the end it turns out to be my turn to regret coming to Bugis, cos i really buy things without blinking my eyes. Haaa. We eat our lunch then buy drinks, then buy food then shop. Wao, i think i bought everything i want le. Shoes, watch, 2 shirts, shorts, belts, then after shoppin we go have our dinner. QQ mian which cost $4 bucks each, it is nice loh. haha. So after paying for my dinner, i realise tat i only got $1 left in my wallet, pity myself then but tat evil friend of mine still ask me to use up tat $1 on drink. haha. ... Really bought alot and we nearly shop every where of the bugis street le. It is a very satisfied day, i spent over hundreds in one go. Nvm, wanting spent more then me so i am not tat sad la. Nice n fun day spent at bugis, money can make e world goes round, true in many sense loh.

Though window shoppin maybe fun, but having money to get those stuff which u wan is more fun. haha. Friends rox, money rox too. Well, friends more la. hehexxx...

Words sometimes cant help to express your feelings.

Words sometimes cant help to express your feelings.

Really don know how to express my feelings in blog sometimes, after my last post here, i often look at the blank page and thought of wat i am goin to express here but end up writtin nothin.

When you feel sad, real sad, it is more than words to express, that is why i hesitate to write down my feelings for the previous days. I thought of writtin more about him, who is in my previous memory but I understand tat if i do more things which is related about him, i would end up hurting myself more. In the past, i thought tat he had actually broken the promises he made and recently i started to doubt on my thinkin. Did he really promise anything? Nop, even if he had, the promises had already gone sour and weight as light as the feather. I find tat the best word to describe about us is fullstop. Short, simple, nice and clear cut.

When you end a relationship, no one is at wrong, no one at all, it is only who don treasure who. He just only found someone who he thought tat he wanted to treasure, so wats wrong with tat. Nah...rubbish. Ok. I am just givin my self some where to come down the stage before embarrasing myself further. haha. Nvm. Really a fullstop. Just like my pair of star earrings which broken into two parts last night, a nice fullstop although i really like tat pair of earrings.

Well, today go find my friend jinhua at lot one at 4 something, she is doin her homework there, so i brought my laptop along to play games.haha. At the same time, Wanting sms me and ask mii whether i wan go eat dinner, but just meet jinhua and we are still waiting for another friend of us to come so i thought of maybe wanting can come to library to find us then later we can have dinner together. She dont wan to join us, but only her go eat dinner herself cos Sandra cant meet her as she is workin.

I felt bad about it for not accompany her to eat cos i can hear from her voice tat she is not feelin happy when i called her and ask her where she was. U see. i am very sensitive de, i told her tat i am at library and when she is also at library, she don even wan to come find mii. So i thought maybe she is really not happy and sad over something. She wanted to be alone tat time, or maybe she wanted someone to be there but no one right. Me with my friends, Sandra workin and chaileng too. Really sorry about tat, but 2moro we two are goin bugis yeah.haha.my off day too. so maybe she can share with me more. Hope so. Ok i will end here for today.

Nothin.just...

Nothin.just...

His ex found her happiness.
-i thought of how he feel and feel sad about it.
Now he found his happiness.
-i thought of how i feel and feel sad about it. pain.
-nvm, he found it. She is sweet as he described. good.


Fullstop

Next meeting yeh?

Next meeting yeh?

so after sayin bye to jinhua, i went home. Thought of doin something before meeting wanting for dinner. But guess wat, when i reach home, i heard piano sound comin from my neighbour's house. Wao, they bought a piano, so open e door n went to take a look. In e end, invited inside their house and chat for few hours. haha... So nice loh. Though the piano is second hand de, which cost over 2 thousands, but still better than my house, don even have one. I thought of learnin piano n havin a piano in my house since primary school. But a dream is a dream, my parents don let, they don see e need. But i really wan to learn, sure need to pay for my own if i wan a piano n learn how to play. So let my dream wait ba, like wat my father said before, if really bought a piano, then u need to get rid of ur bed loh. Cos no space in the house to put the piano.haha...dots.dono cry or laugh. Piano? haiz...

So back to topic, when i reach home, i realise it is exactly 6 pm. Which is the time tat i am goin to meet wanting for dinner. Luckily she sms me tat she will be late too, so i went to sweep the floor first before goin to meet her. The mrt which i took stop at Cck de platform, but did nt open e door, it stop then move on to yew tee. Think got some problem, dono la. only no tat i need to take an u turn back to cck.. heard from wanting she also met the same situation before me.

We went to the food junction to have our dinner, both wan to save money so can guess wat we buy? we bought yong tou fu, total $5, 2 bowl of plain mee feng n one bowl of varieties. haha...Then we also hang out at the library. N found tat the book which i lend to my friend is overdued-$2.70. heart pain lei.dots...nvm.After chattin, we went to shop around to see wat present can we buy for guys then go to toilet- photo takin yeh? But wantin says she cant take photo with tat t-shirt which she wear. Then after tat, we bought ice cream for each other n sit inside mac to eat. She says no money, but i buy 60 cent de ice cream while she bought 1.50 cents de. dots...We chatted till 10 pm, n i went home first cos ting say she wanted to sit there for a while longer.