Damn system

RP RJ system...damn it

Stupid this system la, need to sent in RJ by 12am.

If not then will bann u outside.

So frustrated sia.
do finish then can sent it.
I cant connect to the internet thus
by the time i am able to sign in to LEO,

it is 12.01- RJ summison closed.
damn damn hell la.

Just short of 1 min lei. /.\''

.......

ok, i sent the RJ by attachment to the Faci.
All the best la, hope he still can accept it.

LOL!!

.......

Nvm.forget it.

lets talk about the tuition which i gave today.

Last min lookin through my Outlook email,
saw that there is suppose to have a tuition thing

in e afternoon.

No money for it, so it is considered as
volunteer work.
Under my IG- Service learning club.
these group teens are from the YMCA- youth at risk.
So after lesson finish at 4.30, other friends who are
also under this project meet together

anD
off we go to the tuition center to meet the teens
.....

Hhaah.

guess wat

some of them were smoking outside when we reach..
haha.nothing to comment about that.
......

They can be really dramatic and can do stuff which makes u laugh till tears appear.

n also stuff which will makes u scream on top

of ur voice.

haha. Luckily the teen which i teach with Misa is a willin to learn person.

These teens are having their exams these coming weeks.

So consider as last min revision ba.
.....

So concluding wat i felt, i don think they are prepared for the exam.

mmm...
but it is good tat e guy which i taught is showing signs tat he want to learn.
.....

okide.

2moro will also go to teach these teens again.
all the best to mii n them.

haha...

Jia you

Updating...process

Planned to meet hua at 6.30 tis morning to play badminton.Wao...:)
Guess wat.

I wake up at 8.30 in a jerk to see hua's sms tat says
she don wan to play badminton le.

Hhaa.Luckily she says tat...cos i wake up late too.

...

So as usual, work e whole day.
Today business super good.
short of 14 bucks can meet target of 6oo dollars

lol. I nearly go out and snatch passerby n force them buy.

haha...well.Tat is for e day.

Super duper tired.

....

tat guardian shop's sales assitant told mii yesterday
tat they will call me today for the confirmation of the job.

lol. waited n waited.....

Silent mode sia./.\''

dono 2moro after school wan go ask again mah

really lookin for 1 more job..
Pitiful bank account.

lol..
........

2moro school reopen again.

life goes on

sian.

go school
after school
weekend

work

hang out with friends.

'='

Where is my target n my goal.

Really don let my self look down on myself one day.

.....

cheers
Jia You

Moon cake festival.

Hey, wat is today?

So mooncake for today? not tat significance la. But when u are celebrating with a group of friends then i can i say it is meaningful. Today i really had my schedule fully packed, after lesson ended, i rushed my rj but didnt manage to finish it. After tat i rush for the YMCA briefing at 5 pm, which is actually the day with the teenagers from youth at risk and i had actually forget about tat. I thought is only a briefing or something on YMCA.

Well, from the last time i saw them until now, it had been over a month le, thus i do not really remember their names already. Nvm, nt e main point. So we played games together and chit chat till 6 something and then we had this reflection time when all of us including the planner and the youths are sitting down n share about how they feel of the day playing the games which we had arranged. And it is also e time when the youths are able to come out with more ideas on e type of games which they would like to have during the next session. Their exams are starting from next week but the guys obviously did not wnt to have any revision or help from us. Only tat two girls are asking for help on revising. All of them are from normal tech n achedemic, and are at a risk of being expelled from school. So planning games for them is to help them spent their time wisely rather than smoke and loitter around blocks. But for the revison part, we as the planners are willing to help them if they wanted our advice or revision. So if they dont want, we also cant do anything.

After our dismisal with e youths, I saw B de msg n miss call. I am really sorry tat i did not reply cos we are puttin our bags aside when playing the games. So he msg me to tell him when i had finish, but it is like 45 min later then i reply him. So when i called him back, he is at his house lift n reaching home. He says he not feelin well so he go home first. Well, we chatted on phone during my way to causeway to meet my friends.

The whole session of the YMCA end earlier than expected, from expecting 8pm to 6pm. So too earlier to stand at the control station to wait for vinci and Hao to come when we are actually meeting at 8.30. So i sms them to come earlier, luckily they are able to come out asap. Inbetween e time of waitin, Afika n me went to have an ice cream at Mac, to pass my time n hers as she is waitin for her parents.

After meeting with Vinci n Hao, we went to have dinner at Sweensen to celebrate Hao's belated birthday. Haha. Hope she is happy with the present which i had bought from my shop. So we happily eated our orders and after tat, i start to continue my Rj cos i am goin to meet another group of friends after we had dinner together. Luckily inside sweensen, there is wireless available. So manage to finish up RJ and summit it on time.

With e RJ summited, i can go enjoy myself with the other friends le. Yiwen n his boyfriend, Qiao min, her god brother n xiao hui. We went to this open area or open roof on top of one of the blocks at bukit batok. There is so nice as the moon is directly on top of u and the space is so big tat you can do anything. Nothing covered from u, so it is so relaxing. So we light up a love shape candles- with hundred time of failure due to strong wind. haha. then we also play lanterns together and other stuffs which i dono wat it is called. Aiii...Mom called to rush me home so bo bian, i went home first with them stopping a taxi for me. Thanks sia, u can just imagine the driver's face when he saw so many people wavin for one taxi and turn out to be only 1 passenger. haha. Well i really did enjoy my self though i know them only recently. N very pai sei tat i did not pay for any of the lanterns n candles n firework.haha.they are so nice. really. It is fun. So by the time i reach home it is 12.30am liao le, so now i really need to go sleep le. 2moro school again.

Let me scan through

Let Miii Scan through...

I also not sure when did i start to like my e last word of my name-"xia" with e meaning as rosy cloud. Think of it, being a cloud, i can be anything and warm towards anything. haha. Well...Nice to feel tat way now n then, it will makes my life more meaningful yeah.haha.

Let me see, in the past i thought i like raining, i like to let it fall on me (of cos when there is nothing important which i carried). As i always choose to believe tat the cool raindrop would rinse away all e unhappiness. Listenin to the raindrops fallin is like clicking on the backspace on our keyboard. Well. tat will be e past, as now i don really like to feel tat way as i understand that no matter how heavy e rain can be, in the end troubles are still there.

Now i don really like raining tat much, i began to fall in love with the scene after raining. Not e sun rising up afte rain, just the fresh feelings of the world which seems to be washed clean by the rain. Even the breeze feels so cooling, even e air can be so clean. Maybe it gives me a feeling of fresh and clean, just like a new beginning. mmm.Life is full of this n that, things which u like tend to changes over time when you met with different stages of people.

Among the leaves, i like autumm leaves e most. looking at them drop down makes me sad but looking at them shine under the sun makes me feel so warm. Ok. this post is really not gettin anywhere, not for u guys to no more about me but for myself to know where i am. So people out there, u can choose to close one eye or both also can.

Being realistic

So how much does 2 semester differs?



let me see...if i say the first week during the first semester, i got all As for all the modules. But now for e first week of the 2nd semester, i had being getting 2 Bs le. ok. see the difference? haha. Let me eleborate further.



Having a new class for 2nd semester, i really feel the tension. Not the tension between new classmates, it is a non-verbal tension. It is wat i felt in my heart only. This new class is very different from previous one, everyone present so well. Really stress sometimes when need to compete silently for a good grade, in a class where everyone are able to show that they are discussing well and present so well. It is kind of hard to get a good grade like before.


Past friends given up?

Sometimes being more tensed up with the problem, i choose not to go for breakouts but went to have lunch with my new classmates after we had finished doing our work. This makes our work easier when we are able to go back class together and do work together. But i did not forget my past classmates, really! In my life, i treasure friendship the most after my family. So my friends please dont doubt on me when i say i treasure our friendship. When i say i miss e times when we laugh together and joke around, dont ever doubt on me.

Friends out there, i really apologised for my behavior of stayin away with u guys. I havin realistic, really, too much things makes me lost trust in friends believin tat they will be there for you no matter wat. I also not sure when did i start to tell myself tat friends are not forever, they will leave u one day. Betrayin by friends makes mii feel tat way so please don blame me for being too realistic. I only understand tat i treasure my friends as long as i am with them. Overall, i really treasure friends.

searching

Searching

I am searchin n finding n found tat i am beyond my own control. I do so many stupid stuff, believing people who i should not believe. Doin stuff which i shouldnt do. I lost it, my way forward. i lost track of how fast the time goes. Kind of calm in e surface but deep in my heart i had lost my way. I became more n more not knowin who should i believe and start to like lookin at blank pages of the new blog post n put my feelings in it without writting them down.

My friend laugh at me, she says i like to write my blog with content which is connected to Him. Well, i told her tat i did not write anything about him since e day i saw him with his new girl friend's photo on msn. I dont deny tat i had been lookin at blank posts now and then but dont dare to write any thing down. Writting them down would become a fullstop between us, even friendship. Tat would mean i had nothin to do with him any more. After a week now, i write this down. A fullstop. We had not being contacting each other for a long time. of cos he would be happy for tat la. dots.

THE END