Wao

wao... unblievable

guess wat!

Its 8.45 am when i step into class.

N

it is empty.

now is 8.50.

N

it is still empty...

hahah..

i am e only one.

haha.

okok. i am too excited

Any way e lesson start at 9 am.

N today is cuture module.

a surprise

A surprise birthday surprise...

haha...

Here i wish my besti hua a

BERRY

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY.

haha

I brought a group of friends to her house with presents

n

cakes and drinks.

Guess wat!!!

She is bathin at tat time...

so wat we do?

we went inside her house then sit there in her living room

Her parents n siblings all at home.

So we didnt make any sound and waited...

N

haha...

with a towel on top of her wet head, she stare at us

like we went to e wrong house like tat.

haha

...

Ok ...

we took photos together

eat cake

sing song.

see her unpack the presents

read the hand made birthday card which

is made by mii and with all of our wishes in there.

...

really

i can see her tears coming.

.....

No need to tank mii de

I just feel sad tat u have ur birthday for 2007 with only

ur family members.

IT must be a memorable one with lots of friends wishes

damn O level

It wont affect ur day with us de.

....

cheers

my besti...

after O

we will celebrate..

JIa you!!!

Dont matter.

Life is gettin boring.

Lol.

No achivements.

Nothing matters.

Just slackin

Both emotionally and physically.

I hate school.

Dont bother....NOthing matters.

Sucks. present. When is goin to lead to future.

Why bother...

Try-deep thought...

Try

My cousins- two of them.
My once so caring cousins.
2 days before i had a chat with one of them online.
though both of them may be in china at e moment
n get married and have their own children and home.
.....

But they still, they did STILL
believe in mii, they always will encourage mii
n say they know i will always try my best.
.....

I am in deep thought everytime i chat with them.
no matter how many years had been apart,
they still care about my progress.
.....
one my cousin says that "if u didnt try, how would you no u cant do it"
I rem when they had been there for mii when i start primary school,
with my parents who are uneducated, these 2 cousins taught mii
most of e morale values and education.

......
They brought my brother n mii to e first library
exploration in our life after
we step into Singapore. Bringing their future wife along,
i felt e happiness of
a family goin out together. My parents didnt even go to library be4,
if not becos of my
cousins, i think i would not fall in love with e enjoyment of the novels.
The type of love i have for them is not easy to
express, it somehow become a gratitude towards them.
.....
I suppose i did afraid to call them- long distance call,
sometimes avoided to talk to them on phone.
......
Dont mistaken mii
.....
I am just
just too embarrase to face them.
Listening to their encouragements, i felt heavy- in my heart.
Wat had i done after they left mii, did i done some thing proud.
.....
NO. I told them how unsuccessful i had become, but they
did not agree with mii.
they believed in mii n wanted mii to try.

.....
tears rises to the eyelid.
swallowed it into the small corner in my own little space.

......

Deed thought....

Ur birthday

Its an empty promise in mii

Oct coming.

Ur birthday cames...

out of no where, i am afraid.

cos its something which is related to u.

13 th of oct.

ur birthday....

Thought of gettin u a present months before.

.....

Don ask mii y

......

Ever since i saw ur msn picture with her.

I know.I knew.

I am foolish.....

Buyin a present for u is not the major thing.

IF i buy it, it would become another thing which

is related to u.

I wan nothin more from u.

cos u r hers.

" the one who can heal ur past wounds"

sound familiar yeah?

haha...

lol

........

Ever being so foolish?

Dont ask me y!

Dont ask me why!

I am jus tryin to find some to express out my

feelings.
Since when, i realise i am being to soft in my feelings.

I depended and needed friends so much.

which resulted in me not able to control my own

feelings when friends start to

stay away from me, betray me or

dont talk to me.

I tend to imagine alot of stuf when u suddenly don talk to mii

I feel it, somehow with no explanation.

just feel not right.

Then u will see me emoing down there...

don ask mii y.

i cared thats y i tend to think alot.

This new class, really hope i can blend into it.

with new friends, its a beginning.

I missed my last class.

misses.....

Don be mistaken tat i am€ not happy in my new class

just tat don have the feelin like e previous class

Dont ask mii y./.\"

I just dont like people to dislike mii.

I am being stupid enough

to make sure i bring laughter.

I have always treated everyone nice.

With a sincere smile.

I am afraid of losing anyone of u.

Really.

But i must rem something,

i cant be tat good.

not possible to make everyone like mii..

no matter how good or sincere i am

there will always have people who disagree with u.

I need to change my mindset.

Hoping too much

only ending up hurting urself.

So why not

hope for something low and

safe urself from injuries.