Its not only mii...

Its not only mii...




Its not only mii that is involved in this relationship.
I complain tat i am sacrificing a lot in this relationship, and yearn for being single again.
But like wat dear said, i am being really selfish.
I am only pitying for myself, but i did not feel sorry for dear.
When i think that i am losing a lot of time to be with my friends,
dear also did not have any time with his friends.
Its true, both of us have to sacrifice something in the relationship, and i only thought i am the one sacrificing.

Dear always meet his best friend for dinner but after starting this relationship, he had not have the time to meet up for even a meal. Every single day, dear will sent me home, whether it is after school or after work. only on those days when he is sick or really very tired, i will go home by myself.

I am being really selfish, maybe i am too used to dear sending me home safely that i actually forgot that he is sacrificing his own rest time. I am taking things for granted. Really. When i tell dear that i think we are seeing each other too often le, and should see each other less often. I forget the times when i am at work and sms dear that i am very bored at work, and dear will come down to accompany me even when is out with his friends. And how can i forget the time when i am down with rashes on my face and neck, u actually left your best friend's birthday celebration early, just to come down to my work place to help me apply the medicine, as i complain that the rashes makes me scratch my neck and face.

I feel so not matured when i hug so tightly to u, crying and say i feel so tired with this relationship and you say that you are also, and you are actually consoling me and tell me that all this takes time, it takes time to adapt to each other's life and everything.

I am selfish, all i think is only me, only that i am e one suffering and losing my freedom. I complain tat we are seeing each other too much, especially when we will see each other every day at school, sunday you will come find me at work after you work finish. But i did not feel for you. I did not think that you wanted to spent days out with me, not only see each other at school. we only have two days off for each other every week, like wat you said, we had being together for 4 months le, but how many days did we have for each other to go out dating. Sorry dear.

Last day of emptiness

Last day of emptiness

Dear coming back today, later go fetch him in e evening.
Last night when he called, i am kind of sad to hear his voice.
I feel bad, he sound so sick and yet i make him worry and not happy.

Just thought that maybe will join the Alif group of friends after work at the coffeeshop.
But didnt tell Dear about it, but at least i tell him e truth when he call.
I know its not very nice for me to hang out with a group of guys so late,
but seriously i view them as friends rather than guys... lol...
Maybe i should really change my mindset now le...
I cant treat guys just like how i treat my girlfriends, there is still a barrier there...
Though everyone talk about trust of opposite partners, but there should still have basic
respect for each other. If not wife will hang out at guy friends house though she is married, and girls who are attached will stay out with guy friends out late at night.
Trust is one thing, but respect is another thing that love should covered.
Miss dear a lot...

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Now workin on my proposed idea for teacher's day celebration in school
Thought of the voting system and wishes with hand prints on a big piece of white cloth for
all students to participate.
Still workin on it...
But school only opens after Teacher's day which falls on first of sept.
I hope my work wont be wasted the worth.

(18th birth)

Misses

Misses-2nd day without u






Dear just called me, on phone with him.
If its not Vincent de phone which he use, i wouldnt have hang up.
I really miss his voice. Its e first time i hear his voice today.
I miss him, told him tat i would go fetch him on thurs when he come back.
I wan to hug him e first thing he come back.
Dear sick le... really worry about him.
I know its me tat spread the flu to him de,
before he go Malaysia, he is already sick le.
Hope he take care of himself...

Luckily he is not far away from me. we stil at the same block in our new class.
just now sms with dear, then i tell him tat he same class with one of our girl in our class and other people who he
may knew before de...
thought he will joke with mii or wat. cos i everytime say he n this girl more compatible.
but i am touched with his reply.
cos he reply mii this
"Is my class far from you"

I miss dear...
My second day without you...

Different class le

Different class le

I cant describe how i feel now, just seen the new class now.
Leo had already come out with the new class names le.
I am in different class with Dear le.
I am sad.

Same class as Jeremiah and Wanglu (from my previous class de)
And still have XueWei(my secondary and primary friend)
how will my new class be...
haiz...

Thats how we met :)

Tats how we met :)

The class we met- E66N

From strangers to classmates.
Then we(this group of friends) always hang out after school and have break together.
And the story went on until one day i dint even realize i had like you.
I think i only realize this when you went off with ur previous female classmate
during break time when u are suppose to be going with us to have our lunch.
And first time i feel the jealousy in myself.
And i dint realize you also start to like me at tat period of time, and both of us also dono how come we like each other over time.
I still thinking what draw us together neh...

A day without you!!!

A day without you!!!




Today is Monday, thought that everyone Monday blue so the sales wont be so good.
But not so bad, still manage to get more than 300 bucks sales.
Jeremiah came and look for me in the afternoon, he says he too bored at home.
Hiaz... really dono how my day went by de.
I really hope to have many customers today, so as to divert my attention from thinkin of Dear.
Good that Jeremiah came down, at least time pass faster.

Now i am home and i am really very tired...
Dear not able to use his own phone in Malaysia there, so can only through Vincent de phone to contact Dear. Just now reach home, sent msg to Dear to tell him i reach home le.
Thats what Dear ask me to do, to report to him everyday when i reach home.
But i think 2moro i wont be doin tat ba. cos its still Vincent de phone. I dont think its very nice to
use his phone also. Need to pay extra overseas de ma. Thought Dear will buy a card there to contact me, so will be more convinient, can call him also. but he didnt... haiz... What is he doin there now ah? Sleep le ma?
Haiz... Just feel that there is something missing, dear have not sent mii home for 2 days le.

2moro is another day... goiing to school for the council meeting... but wat am i goin to do after e meeting... I need sleep... think i will go home ba...