Upset

Upset



I got really upset with marketing faci.
how can she follow e system blindly de.
Just because i didnt submit my quiz?
= grade affected....
really upset with her.
N i really regretted getting up with mens cramp late at around 1am,
just to do her rj before getting back to sleep...
super regret
Life is getting more n more 'interesting'
haha!!!

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Example of the brick wall

Is there a brick wall in your way?
Fine, that happens. But you have a choice.
You can walk away from the wall. You can go over the wall.
You can go under the wall.
You can go around the wall. You can also obliterate the wall.
The choice is in my hand.

(*wish i can do this... always stay positive. cant i just see things in e bright side)
somehow i don dare to see e bright side. once u get to see e darkness,
u don dare to enjoy e daylight.
Encouragement to myself...
Be strong... i am goin to survive to see my 2moro

Special Thursday

Special Thursday

Today went to causeway with Dear
Bought his DVD
Then decided to have lunch there too.
Searching from the basement to fourth level, in e end back to level one.
WE HAVE PIZZAS
haha! Dear treat mii tis meal.
*(chu know owe u a lot of meals le, next time got money treat u bah.haha)
So haven eat i am already very satisfied le.
Ok! when we are looking through e menu, we are already very hungry le.
so we ordered tis 1-for-1 pizzas.
1 big BBQ cheese chicken which comes with 1 medium pizza.
When it arrived, it really seem so big. E menu seem so misleading.
So....
I manage to get 2 big pieces n 2 medium ones into my stomach.
While for e rest... of cos goes to my beloved dear.
haha... n i am e one complaining that e pizzas is taking so long with mii starving down there.

After finishing our super filling dinner.
Really no energy to shop.
Bought 1 bubble tea drink then went dear home le.
N fall dead asleep with dear mumbling beside mii...
ok. i am subconscious only k. still listening, just not answering.
i am so sleepy then, n now i am so wide awake but dear go sleep 1 hour earlier le.
haha...
I wish tat we are like handphones, at night fully charged then whole day can be
full of energy.
like tat i can spend more time with dear le.

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Wats e worst thing

Change e worst

*Simply love tis folder from u. Its not empty,there is a reason why u smile (:

E worst thing is when u r not suppose to feel lonely,
but yet there is sense of loneliness.
E worst thing is when wide awake, but u feel so tired.
When u r suppose to be happy, but somehow cant find e reason
to be happy.
Somehow when u r suppose to do well in daily module, u didnt get e
grade u want.
Somehow when u really need someone there, u cant find anyone.
When u r so hungry, u just cant get e food into ur stomach. haha.
cos u don feel like eating when e food is in front of u.
somehow u just can see or feel e same as u should have.
When u really wanted to be nice towards parents, e words comin out from e
mouth just don seem right.
Parents are e only ones who stands right beside me. isnt it.
love those who love u so much.

Happy 1 Year Anniversary

Happy 1 Year Anniversary

*E story begins

*E story continues...
with lots of love n love

The reality

The reality

*Being loved is wat keep mii going on

Yesterday talked online with a senior who graduated from RP.
He told mii a lot of the study life in RP, and the world out there is much more worst than
wat we r facin in school.
He let mii understand tat in order to survive, u got to show to the Faci how much u worth.
No matter how much effort u put in in class, but if u get poor grades for the UTs(exam),
u still wont get the "nice treatments" from the Facis.
He told mii tis "If u r e boss of the company, u prefer someone who can bring in sales to the
company or someone who always work till so hard but brings nothing to the company"

Now is my third year in RP, n i began to see so many stuffs which i had not wanted to believe they actually existed. Everyday be ready on your guard, be sure that the Faci know tat
u are doing work. If not even when team members gona backstab u,
u also got no idea why ur grade for e day is so lousy.
Other people can act one face infront of faci, another face with u. But who care,
tis is e reality, the Faci wont care so much about your "backend"effort. All she want
to see if whether e problem of the day is being solved not. Isnt tis e reality.
In e workforce, e boss wouldnt be interested whether how much nights u have spent in company just to finish the proposal. All he is interested is how much profit does ur proposal brings to ur company.

I got tis comment for the day for one of my module.
" To do well, your final output is just as important as your effort."
So my effort is there, but just because i presented my solution wrongly, wat i deserved from my effort for e day is flushed down the drain.

I have always believed that be good to others, u will get e same treatment back.
but after e conversation with my senior, i got to believe tat there r still people out there who
step on u in order to climb higher.
I cant bear to do tat, but for now i should always remind myself to beware of my back.
who knows right. e one who seems to work with u so fine, may be e one who backstab u.
its hard to let myself enjoy going school anymore.
i seem like going to battle. haha.
But its always good tat i have so many nice friends in school who can share my troubles with them. there are so many nice friends around mii...
tats how i survive through. :)

IT advance

IT advance



Did i mention tat my desktop spoiled?
so tat means my brother is sharing my laptop.
n my cousin will be using my laptop during weekend when he is coming over.
N now more interesting, as if 3 people sharing e laptop is not enough.
My parents also join in e 'Fun'.

Have webcam videoing with relatives from China. First my father sit there in front of my laptop for hours. i waited fall asleep. then i am woken up by my mom's super loud voice.
n realize its already 10 plus. N e relatives from e other side keep taking turns to talk to my parents.
But really cant comment on tat cos my mom haven seen them for many years.
N from her tone of voice. YEs! we all know she is overjoyed to see their faces.
So there goes e "u look thin, u look fatter, we all grow old" type of conversations.
N i fall asleep again.
I wanted to tell my mum to chat another time cos i haven done 2 RJs including evaluation n quize. But i cant bare to do tat, cos its really rare for mum to see this group of relatives as they migrate to another part of china for business for quite few years.
So i waited n finally able to get my laptop back around 11 plus.
N i really panicked, but still manage to finish both RJs on time n evaluations.
Pwwww..
haha. yes!!!

N to remind myself, i heard my mom mention something about continuing using e webcam conversation 2moro with e relatives again. *faint* HAHA