Friday...

Friday-so much fun.

This week I off on Friday and Saturday, while the rest of the days of the week work for the whole day. Friday is the celebration for teacher’s day, so went back to secondary school with a group of my girl friends- Phuishan, wanting, Sandra, Chaileng, Yongbing. In school, we also met a lot of other classmates, huiyi, vinci, jody, Benjermin, chuanyew, K.K, jakey and lots of others. Really happy to see them and the teachers, we bought slice cakes for those teachers who thought us before and chat with them for a while.

After that me, phuishan, chuanyew, benjermin, yongbing went to westmall to have our lunch, more like gossip session.haha. about those people who went back to secondary school and those who did not. Talk about our life in school and our future; suddenly feel that I become older le. Kind of sad also, when every one of them manage to get into the course which they had chosen in the first place while I am only squeezing into a course which is near to what I wanted to have, which is business. Everyone of them talk about what they are learning in their school and complain of how stress and compare about their studies. But what can I compare with them, I do the same thing everyday in school which is not related to the course which I choose. It is really a sad thing, as I can only see my friends’ future but I cant see mine. Upset over this for a lot of times le, after having our burgar king lunch, Phuishan and me went to the food court to carry on our gossip and our life then after satisfied with that, we decided to leave for home.

Actually, I planned to go home to wrap up the present for Jianfeng so that later that night can pass it to him. But the moment I am online, I start to do my online stuff…aha.. so in the end, use a box to put the present inside then find a nice plastic bag to put it in. Sincere enough ok? Haha. .. At 5.45 I went to JInhua’s block to meet her so that we will go to Science Centre mac to meet the rest of them and the birthday boy-Jianfeng. When we reach the Bukit combak Mrt platform, Jinhua introduced a guy friend to me-guowei. She did not tell me that we are meeting him, so I was kind of surprised. Guowei is a nice guy, who really very friendly, first time meet can also talk and laugh together. A funny and nice guy I can say.

After reaching Jurong East, the three of us went to buy a cake for the birthday boy with 6 persons chipping in the money. We celebrate for JianFeng at around 8 pm, so the rest of the time, we hang around in the science centre mac and chit chat. After the funny part of the celebration, we decided to went to JE to play pool. Which is more laughter than playing for me, so I think I pay $4 bucks there entertaining myself? Haha. But I really have fun that night, with friends around me, I am not that lonely and won’t be thinking of him at the moment. We played till 12.15 am, then take MRT home. By the time I reach home, I am really very tired. Thought would go sleep as soon as I reach home, but in the end, end up online till 2 am. Haha…addicted to online le.

really dislike can?

Really dislike can?

I really dislike the feeling of loneliness, so I also do not like those people who last minute cancels off something. If it is someone who is not important to me, I don’t think I care. There is a story behind it, during one of my past birthday; a group of my friends who planned to meet me to celebrate my birthday canceled the outing when I am already on the way to meet them. I was lonely, really upset over it, even till now. Every year for my birthday, I only wanted a group of my friends to stay by my side to celebrate my birthday, only sincerely and have fun together. That is so simple, isn’t it? I just do not like to feel the feeling of loneliness, especially during my birthday.
That day, he SMS me for supper at night and I reply him ok but need to wait till 10 pm after my work finish. He did not reply after that and I predicted that the meeting won’t turn out right in the end. As I expected he really SMS me at 10 pm to tell me that he do not think he is meeting me as he had a heavy dinner and was still full. So supper is canceled. I think for a while of how to reply his msg, thought of telling him that I did not have my dinner because he says will be having supper. But in the end, I only manage to type out the word “ok” to him. I am upset, I hate loneliness, especially that night I work at Bugis, and I was the last one to close the pushcart so feel so lonely. It is dark, no one there to listen to my complain of him, I am tired and angry. Hungry too, I smiled to my silly thought when I ask myself whether he cared of whether I had eaten or not. No, he doesn’t care. Shit. I really hate myself and start to dislike him too. He really let me have a taste of loneliness for so many nights. And I hate loneliness the most. I remember him told me before that he is sensitive and so he should be able to feel that I start to dislike him le. Mmm. I really feel sick and tired. We are still friends ba.

money earning time.

Now is holiday season le...so equals to money earning time loh.haha.every day work .11 1/2 hour working time per day...strugglin to stay awake. cos need to earn money.if not no money to fill up my pocket hole loh..haha.

YMCA session with the Youth at risk

Today is e first session with this youths, their age range from 13 to 16. We play games together which includes the Adjective game to let us introduce each other. Then we also have the blanket game, soccer, captain ball and chatting session. This is the first time that we were introduced to each other and we will be having each other's company for 6 more months. It is really nice to know them and i can say that they are very very friendly. haha...which means very hyperactive, they are so enthusiastic in all the games.

These youths are teenagers like us, all malays which included 2 girls and 5 boys. They are at this risk of getting expel from school that is e reason why they were in the YMCA, they smokes so we must come out with games which ensures that they will not feel restless and have fun with them(which is very fun) haha. From the talking session with them, i realise that they really do not like their teachers in school, teachers always pick on them. they often have their lesson conducted outside the classroom and e teachers wont listen to them. I really hate this type of teachers though, always pick on these students and no chance given.

Hope tat these kids really have their time with us and will seek for our help in the future, they are really nice kids, just need more concern only. Anyway really fun to play soccer with them, haha...so fun. next session we will be having tennis and hokiee. lookin forward to it.

What a Day....

computing module for today, didnt manage to do out the product by the end of the day, which is not important as the facilitator only wanted us to absorb as much as possible and understand how the codes are make. I am tired, really tired, planned to make myself to practice on the past lessons for the codings but did not do it. Thats y when doing new codings, i am not able to link what i have learnt to it. Frustrated when not able to do the codings out, thinking that i am going to do codings and even more tougher than that for the next two years. sian..haha. cant change course anyway so can only improve on myself in order to survive..haha. interest can grow de ba.

Today got UT test, tested from problem 1 to problem 14, don think i do well though. Planned to wake up earlier in the morning so tat can read through the 6ps, to prepare for the UT. In the end, i wake up late so can only went to school to study. Didnt really help me to do well for the UT, cos today de UT is about computing and maths. which means last min revision do nothing good, it needs more practices and understanding. This will the last UT test for UT 4, so can relax le..haha.not really though, still need to bear wth the daily lessons-daily grades.

2moro is another day, communication module. one word-sian. last week bon this module de class, this week still feel like boning.haha.cant help, don like this module, too stress up. not the lesson but the facilitator. sian. hope tomorrow can pass easier than before cos last lesson for tis module ma.

Wat Abt sunday?

Today work for the whole day, just came back, so sit here in front of e com n write something. Yeah..today's sale is better, haha..over 4oo dollars n boss still praise mii..I think she really trust me though, cos she let mii work alone for every sunday and she did not come down to supervise mii.haha. luckily today's sale is good, if not i think sonner or later my boss would come down to supervise me le.:) when i came to the shop in e morning, i found tat the lights cant be swithed on. so went to customer service to ask for the maintanience to check. Thought tat this will be my unlucky day when there is no light for my shop, but things eventually turns out better. ...

well, still very sian to work alone cos ur mind got alot of space to think of sad stuff. I cant bluff my self of my own feelings, the sad memory is still there. Luckily i find my way to dissolve it, tat is to read a story book. so i use my work time to finish one chinese novel today, when readin i felt like i am inside the story's world, i would think about the story so that my mind will not be occupied by e memory. haha...