W 46 R formal day





Us... lovin each other..hehe




the three lamers...haha






Hey girls...





W46R...

放手会比较好过。一直停留在你的口袋里，无法呼吸，无法明白天空的辽阔是为了我，雨后的新鲜空气如此清新。美好的回忆就如你的背影，模糊不堪，捉不倒也摸不到。轻快的的脚步减轻了负担，让我舒适的走出爱情英霾。自由飞翔。。。 无需挂虑与牵挂。天上一万颗星星， 我只不过曾今闪烁过。 微笑拥抱憧憬。感觉自己的安慰。微笑。。。

NDP Preview..........wooooo

NDP preview.satisfaction???

This is such an funny day, plannin to go to pulau ubin with brother n father in the mornin but end up goin IMM to shop. buy quite a lot of stuff and end up payin balance for the family photo taking. haha...my father really regret to go shoppin with mii sia...cos every time with mii, he would spent a lot. I don know y loh..think i good at pursuadin ba.ha

When shoppin, my besti frienx vinci called to ask whether i am free to go NDP preview or not, n i need to go meet her asap loh. Ha... so after shoppin finish with father, i rushed to meet her and off we go to marina bay. Free tickets???

wooo... the atmosphere there is really fresh n nice. with the unique way of structurin the 'stage', it enables us to view the sea as well as enjoyin the performance. really cool.. last time not able to see the navy police and navy ships performing with high speed across the sea. real shok??? haha...then army soldiers will also went up to the audience seats and post for everyone to see, it was the first time, they were so near, just beside us... with their guns pointin at the audience. haha. a lot of shok moves, which cant be found in e past NDP.

the best part is the firework at night... last time the firework is behind us, so not very comfortable to see and cant see the whole process. but this time, every single firework will be directly infront of you and the buildings behind the merlion will also light up firework...so can you imagine so many big and nice fireworks up on the sky... no one blockin u..wao.cant use word to describe. haha.

my friend JY is in the air force of honour, i thought it is not possible to spot him there, but i actually saw him..haha.. he is inside the NDP booklet which is given to the audience...dono he know or not.. haha. well. i sms him to tell him tat i am at the preview. thought he would be surprised cos i didnt told him i am goin.. but haha..he did not seem interested.. from the msg he sent mii... no la. if he saw wat i write here, he would deny de loh. haha..so i think he is tired from the preview, so don feel like entertainin mii through e sms..haha. think so...forget it. overall. . . i really think this is the best NDP ever.... the atmosphere is up there, with the music fountain and colourful costumes which the performers wear...wao..if possible i wan to go watch the real NDP in August..

Its time..

encourage by friends...thanks all my girl friends...u all e best.haha.listenin to all my craps and emo stuff. N u all also complain about the emo standard of my blog content...so after reflectin on it, i thought i am givin my self too much chance to get emo and writin emo stuff over and over again is not doin myself anygood. It actually makes me stay in my ground, so i must learn to let go...every thing Now. start afresh girl. don worry anyone and don thing over it. no poin anyway...it takes so long to say this. start afresh... Move on everyone...2moro is a better day...bla bla bla..^.^

What do i need?

Sometimes...tats mii

Sometimes i am puzzled by what i really need. When i was at school today, i feel that i really to go home and sleep before i collapsed. Just feel so tired and sleepy today. I think too much brain cells were killed during the UT in the morning. When i reach home, i really went to sleep although i am not feelin very sleepy at tat time. Haha...so just for e sake of sleepin as i promise myself i will get myself some sleep...but the main thing is i forget to set my alarm clock, so when i wake up, it was after 9 pm. the funny thing is i thought it is only 7 pm. so i was quite happy with myself tat i am able to get up without alarm clock.ahah. when i saw the time shown on the clock in e livin room, i was like so sian...tat feelin came back again...wat do i need ? do i really need to sleep for that long...i can use the time to do other things. And wat for i sleep for so long and now i cant go sleep because i am 100% energetic. haha...sometimes i just get upset over myself just because of very small things... tats mii i thing...tend to think alot which leads to my life a struggle. Isn's it better to be a happy go lucky person...

failure

Failure?

Failure really will only remain as a failure when you know where went wrong but did not ammend it. Plan laziness is my strongest weak point, talk no action added to it and half way giving up. really fraustrated over myself, when will i ever do myself proud. over time and time of failure, i regret it and promise not to do it again,but in the end everything came back and i am doin e same mistake.

lookin at those who went to the same poly like me, i really look down on myself more. I was in the second class in sec school, study so many subjects and use so much money to take the o papers. Taking another language( higher chinese) is a wasted of money, didnt manage to go to JC, so the energy and money put in takin O level chinese went down straight to the drain.

lookin at my friends who manage to do well and get into what they choose, i really don feel like lookin at them. it is a matter of self confidence here, they did not laugh at mii but i am laughin at myself.why and why. I had being asking myself over and over again why i landed up in this situation. why wont i do better? I hate myself for this...half hearted and no determination.

some thing need to be done girl...need to be done

Friend?

Wat is the meaning of friend between guy n girl? It means calling or smsing u need a reason, dont ask mii y. Becos we r friends...i am afraid to let u find me disturbing ur life....when u didnt reply my msg, i will not ask u why...cos i think u r busy with ur life...don know whether is it a reason or maybe u didnt receive my msg? maybe my msg is not a question, it doesnt matter i think...just wanted to see you sms back...haha.

Friends between girls is still e best, like wat 3 of us do today...just chat and chat in the mac...talk crap and our life...haha...I leave home earlier than sandra and ting because i need to come home n write blog..haha.jk. Next time outing must go K box..thats wat ting say.hope it can come soon...to sing the sorrow off...bla bla bla..now everyone busy so its really difficult to find one day out and sing our heart out.

谢谢你的温柔

谢谢你的温柔

As usual, today work for the whole day...alone somemore...sian...no people somemore...more sian..

I feel very down today, not because there is no sales today. Its because 3rd floor of Bishan J8(my work place- first floor) randomly play this song(谢谢你的温柔)-SHE for 6 to 7 times. .. It is a very sad song in my MEMORY. How i wished to just leave my work place and go straight home. I really feel like crying when the song is playing... it leads me back to that night...awful..really awful.

Here is e song...

vanish...

Momory vanishing...

He has the key which opens her heart. He took it n vanished to another planet...with all the promises he had made to her.






She told herself she would not believe in guys' promises easily, but after she met him, she know tat she cant do it. She felt so safe when she is with him, she didnt told him tat. The world feel so small, yet so beautiful..




He had left her after tat day<080607>, he say they will be friends and he treasure this friendship. She really wanted to believe him, but she knew it wont be possible. She thought she was brave that day, that day when he said all those hurtful words. She didnt cried like she was supposed to, not because she didnt treasure the relationship with him, it is because she cant faced it. It was so sudden, everything seems so blessed, with all the promises he gives. He made her world so colourful that day, but also end it with his own hand. It happens on the same day, how can she faced it.






He chose to leave her, because there is very little place in his heart to hold her in. He is still recovering from his past. She really wanted to show to him that she would live better off without him, but she is not able to do it. She is brave in the day, felt strong and accept his reason from leaving her. But everything changes at night, loneliness cover her, hatered knock on her door. She missed him, miss those nights when they chat over the night. Missed his voice. She cried through the night...it is not that easy like she thought. knowing him for such a short time, every moves he had was so clear in the memory. The more she missed him, the more she hates him. She hates him for vanishing, she cant contact him unneccessary. Though he told her before calling him don need reason. But she must rem that was when he still love her. Now everything changed, they are friends like he said, but she knew that they are like strangers now.






Every single minute is taken away by him, she become unsure whether she can go back to her original life. She become frustrated when he called, not because she had forget the memory, its because she doesnt wan to show him that she still haven put down the momory. looking at the nights with e stars, she cant control her tears. Once before, they feel so comfortable to look at, with the promises he gave her. but lookin at them now make her feel pointless.



She become more and more unsure how much the promises worth, over many nights, she repeats wat he had said. She smiled at her sillyness, laugh at her weakness. She had forget how it feels to miss him, cos he is in her mind all the while. It is not meaningful anymore, she only feels that he wont be doing e same thing as her. He had forgot her n live on, she is just a scenery, a place where he had passed by. It is not worth to stay...She cares about wat he says, the promises which once sound so sweet and nice become so scary, every single day, they make the world so incomplete... he would not no how much he had influence her life, he would not realise that he is holding on to her key.






She missed him, but she no its not possible between them, because she missed him in her memory which cant be wiped away....Only possible in her memory.Its over between them, she knew she only needs some more time...some more time....