My 'special' Monday

My 'special' Monday

(taken during my 19th birth)

Today is Jordan's birthday, a group of us go visit him at Kun Ming Shan.
Sorry jordan tat we appear to be short of words.
U know its difficult to talk to a photo n imagine its u.
Our birthday wish is sincere n really hope u will be happy up there.

Have dinner with ur dad, left a seat for u too.
Hope u enjoy ur birthday with us.
Every year we will celebrate all of our 'Family's Birthday together, n i am always very happy
to see a big group of us come together.
U will still be with us for our every gathering, we wont forget u.
Today really have a nice dinner with ur dad joining.
U have a very interesting n caring dad. N we know more abt ur childhood moments.
:)
this birthday gathering still have birthday girl peixuan n birthday boy benjamin.
"Its hard to forget e momories"
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U"

I really enjoy each gatherings with this group of friends.
all e funny memories from sec to poly n even to our adult hood.
I really appreciate this friendship.
I only know tat i am always laughin when i am with u all.
"THANK YOU ALL"

My usual Sunday

My usual Sunday




My usual sun with unusual people :)
when servin customer, i accidentally saw a familiar face lookin at mii.
haha!!! Its HuiMin (ex classmate) yeah. both of us are surprised to see 1 another.
cos we r workin at e same place, same floor n only till now tat we realize our existence.
Kind of sad, too late to realize her existence at RC workplace. haha.
if not, it will become 1 of my motivation for work yeah!

Today being told tat e pushcart is only for 2 more days, then e contract will be due!
No worries, still have my work at J8.
I wan it to last but at e same time i wanted better jobs with attractive incentives.

Rather sad in e mornin cos customer broke our only mirror tat is for sale,
which cause 49.90. I am supposed to ask her pay, but stupid mii just happens to be soft-heart ed at e wrong moment. I actually think tat askin her to pay so big amt is not a good idea. "she also dint do it on purpose de'
N i actually let her off!!! Haiz... as a result i am bad mood for e whole day.
How m i goin to ans to boss right! n things broken always give mii a moody day.

Haha. but i seems to be happier when HuiMin bring her bf to say hi to mii.
it just makes mii happy :)
Sorry for e look on my face
how can i put it in 1 word? atonished??
haha... well, just surprised :)
not bad, her bf came down to find her for lunch, its a happy sight.

***

no 1 understands wats love, n love has no meaning.
I stand there in e middle, lookin at all e couples who work past.
young ones or married ones, holdin hands.
I can actually just stare straight at tis pair of close young couple kissing away infront of mii.
just thinkin hard wat is tis love between them.
when tis bf pay for watever e gf choose from my shop, i smile to e guy thinkin wat is their love. when tis bf just stand at e side takin out his novel to read while letting his gf to finish browsing at e jewelleries, i smiled n thought wat is love.
when tis bf come to buy smt for his gf, n smile happily at e one jewellery tat he chose, i smile too :)
when u r in love, u no need to tell anyone, cos everyone can see from ur face, ur words n ur smile.
****
As usual today hurt my finger as usual. as usual missed e train on purpose.
2moro goin to visit jordan with e rest.
when u haven accept e fact tat he is gone, u seems to be happier,
but now everything seems so clear tat i am not visitin him in person, my eyes blurred.

things cant be changed
hurt always recover with pain
broken vase cant be one piece again
lies n betrays left with only scars
today is tomorow, tomorow is another of today

when things cant be forced, just let it be.
when u forced to hang on to it, u still suffers when u have it.
who don wan to live it to e fullest right:)

I also wan confirmation

I also wan confirmation


*i also cant rem who give mii this (its gone already)




Lookin at people around mii, i realize most of us need confirmation.
whether in e things they do or the dreams tat they have.
N confirmation does not means everyone can give u tat.
So we would look for someone u trust, u love and most imptly.
U know tat tis person will confirm u n get rid of ur unhappy thoughts and support u.

Well i can say tat i dont get those from my family.
Lookin at other children's confident smile when their parents come to support them,
whether big things or small things. I will always smile happier than them.
cos i wan to act like i got more loved ones to support mii.
Dumb mii!

She can be prettier, he/she can be more clever, more caring, more anything...
N i know e most tat i am not tat good. whether being a Gf, daughter, student and a sis.
But everyone needed a confirmation from others.
n dis confirmation msgs like "she really tat good?" does hurts. So give everyone e confirmation tat they needed, whether u agree with them or not.
its does not feel good when everytime u got to hear from someone is tat u still have things to improve or things to change.
No one is perfect, n being with ur loved ones who accept ur imperfect feels lovely.
Since e day i am borned, i am not feeling accepted.
which results in this present mii for wanting be accepted,
all i know is "more friends is better than enermy"...
N to come across ones who accept u for who u r is fortunate n lovely...

:)
in order to be accepted, i changed over the years.
for those who have know mii for years would understand.
I changed every year... whether its good or bad.
n changin for people is very tiring...
N depressive when u r not able to do tat..
:(

My work!!!

My work!!!

my work as sales assistance is getting out of my mind already.
i thought i enjoy this job, but end up feeling more restless as
days went by. My work is simply like this
*serve n help customers
*repair for customers
*listen to complains n get scolded for nothing
*be polite n don ask them F off...
N don complain when ur noodle get dry when listenin to customers complaining

i am just tired ba, esp when dint have good rest these 2 nights.
so lack of sleep does do e magic,
which is raise my voice at customer
(opps, i dont normally do tat)

I wanted a new job, n i m lookin for one.
but outside are lookin for full timers, no vacancies for part timers.
my situation now is (workin with my soul flying off)


zzz... so i drawn pictures, read magazines, play hp games till no battery n DAZE at no where!

(draw a kitty to have more sales-plain sleepy)

haahah. i am just restless, maybe i have lost e enthusiasm in tis job.
i wanted to learn new things n most impt, i wanted a job with colleagues working with u.

Leng's Birthday

Leng's Birthday

I know a bit too late to update on this.
haha...but nvm.
lets share about this special day.
(with photos)
Really hope Leng happy on tat day. haha...
hope e surprise with our food does makes her happy :)

(idiotic photo by Ting) LOL

(hope u can see we prepared spaghetti here) HAHA!

(N it does taste nice loh) HAHA!

(best companion) hahah!

(isnt it cute as a present) :)
(ate at tis new restaurant at marina square: TANG DIAN WANG)


happy birthday to leng :)

My New Sem ahead!!!

My New Sem ahead!!!

(took this when at work. see e magic of editing)

Just came home from work, 2moro got to go with Ting to changi
Airport to send Shan n e rest to China.
Just learned about my new Classes*
which means 4 different classes for everyday with diff classmates.
God!

i cant imagine how m i goin to survive through.
the school system changed,
New UT gradin to adapt,
new school timing to adapt,
new classmates to adapt,
new FYP team to adapt,
I AM GOIN TO STRUGGLE THROUGH...

Haven even start this new sem,
N i have already being discouraged.
one word
SIANS*

Below are my new classes.
Day 4 - Healthcare Applications 1 (C367) @ W67F-C
Day 3 - Manufacturing and Logistics Systems I (C361) @ W67A-C
Day 2 - Sales Management (B217) @ E56P-B
Day 1 - Marketing (B216) @ E56P-B

FYP NAME
PORTFOLIO MANAGEMENT SYSTEM

Looking at wat i have chosen for my course,
i am now more confused of my future. really...
being one with goalless is tiring.
though there are still familiar faces in my new classes,
but the one tat i wish to see is not there.
fated? is it a good thing... HAHA
SIANS DOUBLE

My weeks ahead

My weeks ahead

It will be busy, i think...
tryin to keep myself as busy as possible.
Nothin is as safe as money goin into pocket.
hahaha.

Just changed my blogskin, n tat is only done once in a while.
cos everytime when i change it will mean only one thing.
"Changes"
I am still lookin around for nice features to add in to my blog.
So it takes a while before i have some nice contents in my blog.

just have hot milo for my tired day... to warm my stomach.
then realise it is lunch time, so cook noodles. But after few swallows,
i am full...
so i am here typin.

Went for leng's birthday yesterday. (will update one post with photos on this)
went for QTing's birthday yesterday. (will update one post with photos on this)

*life can be so interesting n fun... but nothin is forever, n now i prefer to enjoy only
the moment.

for the past 2 weeks

For the past 2 weeks

Decided to use photos to take over words...