counting down to 2009!!!

Counting down to 2009!!!

Today is the last day of 2008,
though dear feel tired after 4 full days of work,
he still make the attempt to meet me for dinner.
Really happy to have him with mii today.
But just didnt end the day with him nicely,
i just ended with gloomy face and giving the excuse tat i am just tired.
I also dono y, maybe i feel his tiredness ba.

Am i too childish? Y do i need to have someone to be with me
for every festivals or days tat people are celebrating.
this will be the last year tat i am happy celebrating ba,
next year, nope, its next month i am turning 20.

i don think i will be pulling people to celebrate with mii le.
Dear i just feel lonely inside when i am not able to find someone to celebrate some special days with me. I am not being not understandable.
but i think i understand le, next time don force urself to celebrate with mii,
if u are tired just tell mii. Don bother my emoness.

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2009 is approaching, 7 min to 10.30pm
didnt bother to go down to alif with friends
i am home now, alone...
too late, don bother to do anything...
don ask mii go down cos i am plain xxxx
mmm

i rem 2007 new year eve i celebrated
with yam n hua at alif.
we chat chat chat chat till we didnt notice the year 2008 arrived.
hahahhaha.
:)

now 2009 is arriving,
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE WHO IS READING THIS POST

N HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE I LOVE, ALL E BEST TO EVERYTHING WE DO!!

PS: I LOVE DEAR

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TO THE NEW 2009
I WISH TO HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE
AND KICK ALL MY BAD HABITS

Test is half hour away

Test is half hour away

UT will be starting soon at 4.15 later.
My mind is into different "segments",
i swear myself to don bother anything that
is non of my business.

maybe if i can do that i will be very happy.
In my own lala land.
sometimes, things cant be changed
everything is about fate :)

horizontal lines

horizontal lines

nothin to say to support my title for today.
ting. maybe u will understand ba.
I reach out my hand, touch the cold and take back my hand.
once and once upon a time.
i am just a simple simple girl,
who wanted simple simple things.
Life is too complicated to be simple.
Wat u wan is not wat u get.
one day, this girl will look upon the sky and shout
"where e hell is this!"
ting. how i wish we were back to those days.
"rem the times we stuck in kbox?"
where i sing till cried. who cares right.

Horrible month

Horrible month








Honestly speaking, i am not goin to have good GPA results
for this semester. I forsee it, nop! i can see it.
I really cant do well in those which i lacks interest in.
all the moldules which involves codings, i flunk in them...
I studied, but... flunk. Even suai suai have fever on one of e day
when i have UT test for one of the coding modules.
.....

Days n days i have been looking forward to this day when
i can choose to study something that is within my
interest, finally module selection time is here and
i am making the choice again.

When the chance is within my grab, i still
feel reluctant of which to take.
So in e end....

i chose
Health care applications &Manufacturing and logistics systems
for my core modules.
AND
marketing
& sales management for my electives.
I just don wan to challenge myself anymore
by choosing something which is useful in society but
i don't like it. Just like accounting.
Really hope i got a future- A bright one in my career

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Financial status





Haven being working for 3 weeks le, coming to 4 weeks le.
Haiz... haiz...
haven got the time to go down to shop to take my last month pay.
which is too little to count.
Hai... i am lookin for new jobs..
anyone recommend one for mii?
I need money money...

Today went to dear's house after my botanic garden trip.
its a wonderful trip with the youths at WCC.
there is this art exhibition goin on there, art pieces are
done by the inmates in the prisons.
they are wonderful, i can actually touch them through the paints.
After the trip, went back to WCC for briefing, by the time i take bus
to dear's house, its rainin heavily.
At night eat at dear's house, save the meal for the day...
Dear wanted to say tat ba?
haha... Haiz...
actually should go n meet shan, ting and cherly they all de.
Celebrating cherly's birthday in advance.
a simple dinner shouldn't cost much right? i am thinkin of tat.
But dear's mum just went down to buy dinner, too late to do anything.
Bu hao yi shi to go before she went up. so i reject ting's request...
haiz.
without money, alot of problems...

Friday mood

Friday mood

Today is another friday,
not much plan.
went home alone, cook lunch to eat.
use laptop.
I felt more than not feeling well.

happy 6 months anniversary

Happy 6months anniversary

Time flies, real fast.
Its actually our 6th months anniversary.
Celebrated this special day with dear's
best buddy-junjie & his gf huimin.

me and dear celebrating half year anniversary,
and junjie & huimin celebrating their 1 year anniversary.
The date is actually the same, so qiao loh.
both anniversary is on the 11th.
Its actually dear n junjie de childhood promise, to
celebrate their anniversary together.

Dear saved a lot of money for this special day,
we have our dinner at this Australian restaurant.
After having our expensive meals, we walk around clarke quay
and end up in the "Elephant" pub.
Listen to the band performs and drink tiger?
ooops.haha...

really enjoy this day with dear, though i really wear my heels till
very pain. I really love the eyor that dear bought for me.
He actually rem this eyor that i come across at AMK hub.
N my first rose from my dear.
Its in purple color de, my fav color somemore.
So happy...


more n more anniversaries for us.

raining

Raining

These few days it had keep on raining.
So many people get sick le.

Yesterday rains very heavily,
n I am drenched.

The story starts like this.
Yesterday i went to school for PP presentation,
n the only things that i bought is the posters and
my ez-link card n posb card.

After i finish my presentation,
it had already started to drizzle outside school.
And it is becoming bigger as i walk towards causeway.

I took bus 900 to dear de house
and was reminded alot of times to alight when i saw 888 plaza.
But the more i am reminded, the more forgetful i seems to get.

I seems to have this habit of staring into the rain when outside is raining,
so subconsiously i am doing what i should not be doing.
Which is stare at the rain from inside the bus,
and missed the stops.
When i finally get back to my concious,
i have no idea where i am.

So i called dear n ask where i am,
n it is ofcos a very idiot question, how would he know.
but he guess i should have missed a few stops le.

Dear didnt realise where I am, he
actually ask me to walk back in the opp direction.
As i also thought maybe i only missed one stop,
so walkin back should be no problem.
But the more i walk back, the more i realise there is no
shelter back to the previous stop.
So i stand there blankly n think what to do.

So i run all the way back to the stop which i alighted and run across
to the other side to take the bus back.
luckily this time i am able to spot 888plaza,so alight in time.
I realise i actually missed 2 stops.
After i alight, i actually run towards the opp direction of the road,
which later realise i am wrong, so i ran back.
So all the while i am running in the rain...
When dear's mum open the door for me,
she is kind of shocked.

Dear later help me dry my hair, and i changed to my dry clothes
(which i left at his house the previous day)
Though dear called me when i am at below his block
and told me that he should have go n fetch me,
but i dont know why i just feel more sad.
I think this is why when i saw him,
i am emotionless...
I think i am feeling sad at that time ba.
I always feel sad when i felt helpless in the rain.

Well, but feel much better after dear cook for us.
After have our meals,
i fall asleep in dear's bed.
Actually i should have realise the reason is becos
i am starting to get sick le.

......

Late in the night, i started to cough very badly.
till my chest also pain le.
morning when wake up, throat felt very dry
and thinking why the weather so cold.

through out the day in school, my sore throat become
more serious. N i am feeling dizzy and 100% freezing.
Jiali(group mate) is complaining that she feels warm,
and i am like grabbing on to my jacket.

I am suppose to meet allynn,apple and elieen for dinner today de,
but i really dont feel right.
its not only the sore throat, my body is not feeling right.
So after a short meeting with council advisor,
i left for home. When walkin out of school,
i feel like floating, then heard someone from behind called me.
Its stanley from my last last last sem de, i actually stand there for
10 seconds before saying 'ehhhhh' helo...
haha...

the first thing he ask is why i look so emo,
haha...then i told him i am sick,not emo...
so he walk with me to the control station,
still wan to get pay for the protection fees!
lol... But thanks for his concern also.

..........

After i reach home, i really cant think straight le.
i am dizzy and very cold.
when take my temperature with thermometer,
shocked to see 38.1 degree Celsius.

.....

know i am very sure why i felt that i am goin to flunk my UT that i took before i left the school.
Today's UT is web application, and today's problem is
also web application.
just imaging i am having fever when i am taking the test...
hw well can i do?
......

2moro is friday le.
time flies...
haiz...
monday still have UT.
n i still have one activity to carry out in school.
haiz....
think 2moro i meet ting for dinner ba.
relax a bit ba...haha

Camp for U & I

Camp for U & I

my day

My day...





My sleepy morning started with the horror of reviewing my grade for UT 1 Operating system.
I actually got a D+, 11 out of 28 some more.
Such a disgrace.
Wat for study. Dint even appear on my grade.
Did i ever say i am tired of studying le?
No motivation no motivation.
Especially struggle till the end just get GPA of 3.4 something.
Not one time touch 3.5
Its just 0.5 difference....

Well. My day started with an alarm of how bad my situation is.
I actually TANA
= talk and no action.

home sweet home

Home sweet home





After 4 days of camp in school,
I am really exhausted.
One part of me really missed dear.
Another part of me really wan to go home and sleep.

Being the team leader during the camp really means
a lot of extra work.
I have 8 team members in my team.
Just nice, 4 girls, 4 guys.
We really do have a lot of fun.
And it really means a lot when my team members
sent me MSG after camp, to thank me for their
3 days in camp.

During camp, some of the major activities we have
includes Amazing race(around singapore), Tele match(around RP our school), Food Quest(around jurong point) and Mass dance.

Back on Friday night, reach home around 9.30
and celebrates father's birthday.
I think i am really too tired & falling sick till now,
that i destroy everyone's mood in celebrating.
Haiz....

I slept from 11 on friday night till 3.30 pm on sat afternoon.
Dear laugh at mii for sleeping so long.
After tat i go meet Dear.
when i see him, the first thing i wan to do is to laugh.
WHEHAAHAHAHHA
Dear actually cut his hair till so short, that makes his face look so round.
whahhahahahah.....
Actually i quite envy dear de.
He always give me a confident feeling in everything he do.
Which is something that i really lacks of.
Dear finished his PP presentation and he is quite confident with his performance.
I really feel happy for him, but somehow feel sick when i think of my own performance.

Oh well.
Now i am sick le.
cough cough, sneeze sneeze, yawns...ZZZ

Its kind of long...

Its kind of long...

Oh well too long didnt blog le.

No new photos to upload. cos my laptop went for servicing due to mother board problem.

But i have so many photos want to upload. mmm.

well. That have to wait till this Wed when Acer servicing call me.

Haiz... Here it comes, my money all gone.

cos i am not planning to buy new one, so i go with the idea of just repairing my motherboard,

and thinking of buying warranty for the remaining 1 and half years till 3rd year of school.

= near to 800 dollars to spent.

Anyway like dear say money earnt, money spent.

Haiz. But still kind of sad. nop! is very sad. ...

Any way.

Rem the happy things can le.

Happy 5months anniversary to DEAR

Love you forever and ever.

My friday

My Friday





Guess wat am i doin now?
I am currently inside CCK library typing my blog and listening to music.
With a bag of Oreo biscuit in my bag, and at an easy reach to put into my mouth.
Waiting for wanting to finish work, she tell me she will reach at around 7 like tat.
I reach around 5 pm at CCK here and don feel like going home.
Dear go drink with classmates. All guys, so i am not goin also.

I miss ting, though i have not told her tat.
That day i left early after meet her, i know i am in wrong.
Initiating to eat dinner together but end up leaving her with Chaileng and Sandra.
But i really miss her. Tats y just now ask her for dinner today again.

Today menstruation 2nd day, dont really feel energetic and in a state.
Just now thought of going home straight after school. But helo people,
today is friday. U are suppose to find someone to enjoy it with.
So i dont mind to wait at library for Ting. So long time didnt see her le.

Its not only mii...

Its not only mii...




Its not only mii that is involved in this relationship.
I complain tat i am sacrificing a lot in this relationship, and yearn for being single again.
But like wat dear said, i am being really selfish.
I am only pitying for myself, but i did not feel sorry for dear.
When i think that i am losing a lot of time to be with my friends,
dear also did not have any time with his friends.
Its true, both of us have to sacrifice something in the relationship, and i only thought i am the one sacrificing.

Dear always meet his best friend for dinner but after starting this relationship, he had not have the time to meet up for even a meal. Every single day, dear will sent me home, whether it is after school or after work. only on those days when he is sick or really very tired, i will go home by myself.

I am being really selfish, maybe i am too used to dear sending me home safely that i actually forgot that he is sacrificing his own rest time. I am taking things for granted. Really. When i tell dear that i think we are seeing each other too often le, and should see each other less often. I forget the times when i am at work and sms dear that i am very bored at work, and dear will come down to accompany me even when is out with his friends. And how can i forget the time when i am down with rashes on my face and neck, u actually left your best friend's birthday celebration early, just to come down to my work place to help me apply the medicine, as i complain that the rashes makes me scratch my neck and face.

I feel so not matured when i hug so tightly to u, crying and say i feel so tired with this relationship and you say that you are also, and you are actually consoling me and tell me that all this takes time, it takes time to adapt to each other's life and everything.

I am selfish, all i think is only me, only that i am e one suffering and losing my freedom. I complain tat we are seeing each other too much, especially when we will see each other every day at school, sunday you will come find me at work after you work finish. But i did not feel for you. I did not think that you wanted to spent days out with me, not only see each other at school. we only have two days off for each other every week, like wat you said, we had being together for 4 months le, but how many days did we have for each other to go out dating. Sorry dear.

Last day of emptiness

Last day of emptiness

Dear coming back today, later go fetch him in e evening.
Last night when he called, i am kind of sad to hear his voice.
I feel bad, he sound so sick and yet i make him worry and not happy.

Just thought that maybe will join the Alif group of friends after work at the coffeeshop.
But didnt tell Dear about it, but at least i tell him e truth when he call.
I know its not very nice for me to hang out with a group of guys so late,
but seriously i view them as friends rather than guys... lol...
Maybe i should really change my mindset now le...
I cant treat guys just like how i treat my girlfriends, there is still a barrier there...
Though everyone talk about trust of opposite partners, but there should still have basic
respect for each other. If not wife will hang out at guy friends house though she is married, and girls who are attached will stay out with guy friends out late at night.
Trust is one thing, but respect is another thing that love should covered.
Miss dear a lot...

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Now workin on my proposed idea for teacher's day celebration in school
Thought of the voting system and wishes with hand prints on a big piece of white cloth for
all students to participate.
Still workin on it...
But school only opens after Teacher's day which falls on first of sept.
I hope my work wont be wasted the worth.

(18th birth)

Misses

Misses-2nd day without u






Dear just called me, on phone with him.
If its not Vincent de phone which he use, i wouldnt have hang up.
I really miss his voice. Its e first time i hear his voice today.
I miss him, told him tat i would go fetch him on thurs when he come back.
I wan to hug him e first thing he come back.
Dear sick le... really worry about him.
I know its me tat spread the flu to him de,
before he go Malaysia, he is already sick le.
Hope he take care of himself...

Luckily he is not far away from me. we stil at the same block in our new class.
just now sms with dear, then i tell him tat he same class with one of our girl in our class and other people who he
may knew before de...
thought he will joke with mii or wat. cos i everytime say he n this girl more compatible.
but i am touched with his reply.
cos he reply mii this
"Is my class far from you"

I miss dear...
My second day without you...

Different class le

Different class le

I cant describe how i feel now, just seen the new class now.
Leo had already come out with the new class names le.
I am in different class with Dear le.
I am sad.

Same class as Jeremiah and Wanglu (from my previous class de)
And still have XueWei(my secondary and primary friend)
how will my new class be...
haiz...

Thats how we met :)

Tats how we met :)

The class we met- E66N

From strangers to classmates.
Then we(this group of friends) always hang out after school and have break together.
And the story went on until one day i dint even realize i had like you.
I think i only realize this when you went off with ur previous female classmate
during break time when u are suppose to be going with us to have our lunch.
And first time i feel the jealousy in myself.
And i dint realize you also start to like me at tat period of time, and both of us also dono how come we like each other over time.
I still thinking what draw us together neh...

A day without you!!!

A day without you!!!




Today is Monday, thought that everyone Monday blue so the sales wont be so good.
But not so bad, still manage to get more than 300 bucks sales.
Jeremiah came and look for me in the afternoon, he says he too bored at home.
Hiaz... really dono how my day went by de.
I really hope to have many customers today, so as to divert my attention from thinkin of Dear.
Good that Jeremiah came down, at least time pass faster.

Now i am home and i am really very tired...
Dear not able to use his own phone in Malaysia there, so can only through Vincent de phone to contact Dear. Just now reach home, sent msg to Dear to tell him i reach home le.
Thats what Dear ask me to do, to report to him everyday when i reach home.
But i think 2moro i wont be doin tat ba. cos its still Vincent de phone. I dont think its very nice to
use his phone also. Need to pay extra overseas de ma. Thought Dear will buy a card there to contact me, so will be more convinient, can call him also. but he didnt... haiz... What is he doin there now ah? Sleep le ma?
Haiz... Just feel that there is something missing, dear have not sent mii home for 2 days le.

2moro is another day... goiing to school for the council meeting... but wat am i goin to do after e meeting... I need sleep... think i will go home ba...

our Sat treat

Our Sat Treat/ My Treat




This sat dear bring me out to Raffles City, suppose to be our last day together
before Dear go Malaysia.
Dear treated me to New York New York restaurant,
he dont really think its up to 3 stars standard...cos of their way of service.
Ok, tats not e point... hahaha..
Dear ordered pork ribs... i ate it with dear ... nice nice
& i ordered teriyaki chicken steak.




Mmmm.. i ordered white chocolate Mocha (3 layers) and Dear have root beer...
But i wan to have a taste on Dear do de 7 layers Mocha... Do i get e chance?
after our meal, we ordered a set of ice cream with waffle. mmmm... Yummy.
E way dear cut the waffle with the ice cream makes me sing out happy birthday song to him unintentionally. hahaha... opps...

Dear spent near 60 bucks on our New York New York meal, luckily didnt listen to him to order another set of of crab meal with sea food.... lol... I think we will end up washin plates for the restrauant to pay for our bills. Thanks dear for the meal... so filling...We didnt even think of food when its dinner time. haha..

After that we went to play pool, so long didnt play le... paid for one hour, but only play a while.
Dear say very boring, can do other things de.
So we left loh...

To catch a movie at AMK hub... only 6 audience in the theater (inclusive of us)...
We watch this comedy show "Meet Dave"
Mii wanted to watch one of the Singapore movie.
" 12 lotus or e money not enough".
But dear say he dont support Singapore done movie, cos not worth the watch...
though kind of sad not to watch 12 lotus...
After watchin Meet Dave, i find it rather worth it... its an intersting show...

After the movie, its raining outside le... Rather late le... after walkin around the area, we lack of ideas what to do next, so thought of takin train home...
On train, Dear receive Jeremiah call for a drink...
in e end we end up meeting him at one of yishun coffeeshop, the guys drink but i am not allowed to touch... we chat and drink and watch the Olympic live show on the coffeeshop's TV.
Had quite a late night chatting with Jeremiah...
zzz.... tired but thinking its e last day with Dear, i rather we stay a little longer... but we still
have to take the last train into consideration de.
So left Jeremiah to take train at 11.15pm...
so thought of goin home le

Different turnout of my holiday

Different turnout of my holiday

Planned to fully use up my 2 and half week of school holiday for work.
Aimed to earn near to 1000 bucks for this month.
But now my target is gettin further and further away.

there are times where i want to spent time with Dear rather than go work.
It is just depressing to think that i will be in e different class with dear when our holiday ends.
It will means we are gettin lesser time together le.
Dear may have thought i really value money a lot, i realize this when he asks mii this once.
" you really need money ah"
Dear, its not about work which i think al the time, same as you, i also really wanted to have more time with u.
It wouldn't be lesser than the times you think.

This week actually only off tues and thurs... the rest of the days all work.
Tues off cos i am having Council meeting in school from 12 to 2pm.
Thurs off cos Dear is comin back From Malaysia. Promise him to take off de.
In e end, i realise i have another Training session under my IG e Project(Woodland care corner), suppose to have counciling training session that day on Friday. So quickly told boss about it.
Then i realise i am suppose to meet Qiao Min, WenChong and Serene for dinner on Sat.
Celebrating her moving house and a nice meet up. Its a long time we meet out le. times passes...

So in e end, boss say cant help me cos she needs people to work for full day, cant for half day only.
So addition to my 2 off days, i got another 2 extra off days.
So i off on tue, thurs, fri and sat.
WOW!!!

So to conclude, i only work 3 days this coming week.

Another week ahead

Another week ahead

Tomoro is another Monday, second week of my school holiday.
I start it with workin...
2moro will be working, but different from today, i will be workin at bishan 2moro.

mmm..
Actually a bit of change of workplace from Raffles city to BiShan seems to be fine with me.
Workin at e same place seems to be depressing, same as my lifestyle in RP.
haiz...
holiday comes, school starts, new class with totally new bunch of classmates, tests comes, projects comes, meetings coming, proposals, camps, CCA project, holiday comes, school starts, new class with totally new bunch of classmates, major projects comes and life goes on.

Went back to secondary school on friday with Shan, Ting, Cherly, Leng, Sandra.
Did i ever mention to them everytime they talk about the process of their poly life to our ex teachers, i am numb, prayin tat my ex teachers wont ask me.
at that point of time, i hope everyone just carry on e conversation, carry on with their plannin of their poly. with their attachments and projects.
Attachments? I am not having tat... I dont even dare to mention that.
I should be havin tat.
every moment i think of that, i would realise my life had turned upside down.
How to tell my friends, i am not havin a relaxin time though i seems to be e lucky one with out worries about attachements and projects and exams.
Everytime they discuss about how tense are they recently due to their exams,
comparing about their course, their attachments, their results.
I am shut off... shut off. shut off to the max.





I wanted that, all i wanted is to have all those you all have.
I wanted to be studyin for the exams, stressin over attachments, stressin over the marks i have.
But all this is gone, i cant have it. I have no one to share with me about the progress. cos i cant find anything compatible between us this group of girls. I can see, can feel the way you all feel when you all discuss about school work and school life. sometimes i can see that you all wan to join me in your discussions, but just dono how to do that and whether it is a good thing not.
how to join mi in? " how is your studies in RP? how is your results? what you all doin now in school ah?" Noop... its not your faults, its mine. its my self wantin to shut off from you guys every time when come to discussion with "hows your school, hows your life". cos e questions which i listed above is what i am askin myself everyday.





last sat i finally say everything out with Dear. I thought he will just say things to stop me from thinkin all this unneccesary thoughts, but he didnt. Dear listened to all, helping me to find a better way of understanding my situation. "why should i be worrying about my future, what i wanted to do when i have not really hve the target which i want to meet" Dear told me to give myself time, i should give myself time to find my target, before dashing anyhow without direction forwards and complaining i have achieve nothing.
how is it possible to achieve anything when there is no target set infront of me. Thanks dear to be with me, sorry when i say my life is upside down now.

Pure love

Pure love



Too much thought for today.
Dear off to Ben house with Vincent in e evening today,
came with Vincent to my workplace today.
It is e last chance.
Last touch, Last kiss, Last look in his eyes, Last hug.
I am goin to miss him for almost 4 days.
Dear will be leaving for Malaysia with the guys.
I thought, really thought i dont mind a little space between us.
I thought i wont mind him not by my side for 4 days.

I am wrong, totally wrong.
I cant stop huggin him before he left,
after he left, my eyes gets so warmed that i realize i am crying.
I cant believe how much our love becomes.

On phone with dear after work, I feel happy to hear his voice.
When i told him i thought i had become dependent on him le.
dependent on him accompany work, sent mii home, hug mii before i went home.
Dear actually ask me back, dont i think it is a good thing that we both had become
dependent on each other.
I have a very deep thought on that.

When reach home, mom start to 'lecture' me about boyfriend topic.
About compatible, about future, about trustworthy.
Dear called me when i sms him about this.
When chatting, i realize and feel how much he treasure our relationship.
He is not only looking into our love, but also the acceptance of my parents.
He is worried, and i felt really sorry about it.
I really wanted him to know that it is not that he is not good, its just the acceptance of
my parents is different.

Dear, our love will prove it.
I will remember everything you say tonight, every messages and every bits of your thoughts.
Same as you, i cant imagine me loving another guy more like you in my life.
Thanks for the promises you made, I will keep it... keep it safe in my heart.
whether we are meant for each other, time will prove it.
I love you love me.
Believe me, i really really feel your love.





Hope you enjoy your trip ahead.
Now i understand your feeling when u get angry when i told you i am goin for another camp le.
We had a far way to go from here.
Misses.

Happy 3 months anniversary

Happy 3 months anniversary






Just receive dear e msg wishing me happy 3 months.
I smiled... Smiled at e times which we enjoyed together.

Same as usual, dear come look for me after work. I am
So tired today and seriously no mood to work and pretend to enjoy
promoting to the customers.

Haiz, i am comparing with dear about our pay and working hours on phone today.
And obviously i lose in both.
I work more hours with lesser pay each hour.
Dear stil laugh at me, mii already feel very sianz le.
Whahahaha... Haiz. I also want a better job ah.

Luckily today's sales is more than 200, if not i sure cant close the shop.
lol. just joking, will still close as usual. (Especially i have a timer with me (Dear)).
When comes to closing, he is always so looking forward to it.
Reminding and counting down for me. LOL.

*just want to write down a bit of what i feel today
(dear, i am nt emoing, just wan to type out)

I also dono why i dislike people who shouts or scold me. Since young,
i would always cry when people do that to me. Maybe become a habit le ba.

Everyone have their bad points, and it includes me. It had become a habit from young to
keep my feelings or unhappiness to myself.
In e end i will be showing black faces to everyone,
and they will start to become restles with this, not knowing what wents wrong.
I am learning to change this, especially when this had causes problem between dear and me.

N

HAPPY 3 MONTHS TO BOTH OF US.
11/08/08

TO DEAR: I LOVE YOU!!!

I love you

I love you






There is no sentences or story to describe my feelings for you.
I have only 3 words.
Tat is I LOVE YOU.

Quarrels seems so common for us,
and we learned from them.
Each time we resolved our misunderstanding,
I love you more.
Its you who is always willing to give me the chance
to resolve our quarrels.
There are so many times when i just want to go off
with out solving our quarrels or misunderstanding.
Its you who give us e chance to understand each other more.


2moro will be 11th of August, we had being together for 3 months le.
Remember i once told you that i dont really
think we can last for even 3 weeks to 1 month?
Well, now i know its because i dont trust myself.
I trust you more in this relationship then myself,
its you who makes me increase my trust in this relationship.

Failures before tend to build up a barrier in me,
but I have found you now.
Your love makes me gain back the trust which i am lookin for all the while.
Your love makes me love you more.
I have learned something in our love.
I rem myself doubting on whether we are compatible before.
But now i know it is not about whether both of us are compatible,
its whether we see our self meant for each other.
No matter what different things we may be doing,
but we are both thinking of each other.
Its all about understanding.
And i am still learning.

I feel very sorry to rem wrongly of the date that we get together again.
N i know i had said it wrong for more than once,
no wonder you get angry.
How can i forget that!
I am sorry.

Thanks dear for bringing me to marina bay tonight for e firework.
Its really really a very very special night with you.
finding the best spot, i almost get the full view of the firework.
I have you by my side.
I will rem the sentence that you said to me.
I WILL KEEP IT FOREVER!
*you will be .... ....

Not only is the firework memorable, but pushing ourselves
out to take the train is e best part.
I am touched.
How tight are our hands together?
(opps, i think its me grabbing on to you! lol. cnt remember. haha)
When you lead me out, squeezing through the crowds, i smiled.
Maybe that's e feeling of being protected ba.

2moro both of us are having work. And i am suppose to sleep le,
but just cant get to sleep. So here i am typing down bits and bits of my feelings.

I need my morning call!!

I need my morning call!!

Today didnt go to school, really sick le...

I have e feelin tat after i ate e medicine last night, the chances of getting up this mornin is very low, so ask dear to give mii a mornin call...
In e end he call me late by 20 min. And i really cannot get up, when i realise tat i am already late.
I dont wanna go to school le. I am tired.

I have a dream, I dreamed that i went to school as usual even though i am late.
And everything went on as normal. The dream is so peaceful, i thought its real cos i do everything that i would want to do today in my dream. And when i wake up, i realise i im stil on bed and i had not being in school at all.... For one moment i thought my spirit had wander off when i am sleeping. I remember i feel that my father came to my room and touch my forehead and say i am not having a fever. But i cant rem it... i will ask him when he come back home.

Slept till 1 pm.... Tats when dear called miii... Think he is having break ba, And i am still sleepin tat time, so don really have the energy to answer him. haha...

So here i am, wake up with no food for mii to eat and no one at home. Struggle to cook a bowll of noodle. (nt maggie) and online surf net. I am tired. Just have one thing on mind, i have alot of things to be done but i have no energy to do them.... I am purely distrained.

Sick le...

Sick le...




Ok, now i officially post out here that i am sick.
I AM SICK.
haiz....
Dear also sick le...

Lol... after work, dear went out with his friends.
But good enough for him to come down after tat to accompany mii
till i do closing. Being with him, i seems to lost track of time.
Don't even mind to close shop late.
hahah...
But i know he mind....Tats y always rush mii....

LOl. Then we take train home together.
Listening to his Hp songs together with him.
It seems tat small things can be so happy to do together.

2 moro is another day.
got UT after school, which i haven even study now.
(promise dear to sleep at 12.30am de)
I tell him i want to study for UT, but i am here blogging.
Wahaha....

mmm... Sad, after UT still need to rush to RC to work till 10pm.
haiz.... I am sick, but no choice.... work= money.

Seems to lost track!!

Seems to lost track!!



I have lost track in a lot of things.
All blames to my time management.
There are a lot of things that need to be done,
But i don seem to be working on it.

*PP project needed to do ASAP
*Need to do well for UT
*Need to lose weight
*Need to be punctual for everything....
(seriously -0.5% for being late for class is not worth it)
*Be ready for all meetings: being a member of Student council
* Be ready for the contribution of time for meetings: being a secretary for SLC(CCA)

Haiz....
I cant multi- task....
tats y when things get more and more, I will choose to do nothing.
I can only concentrate on one thing,
which is one of e reason y i become so lazy to ask my friends out.
* I am blamed by my friends for not asking them out
* I am blamed by my dear for attending all the meetings and activities

mmmm......
I am tired to argue.

I think i am good in bottling up my feelings.
Cos i seem to be posting new posts at one go rather than constantly.

ok, got to go sleep now le.
I have work 2moro....
See wat i mean by poor time management?
LOL....

Just feel like typing down.

Just feel like typing down!






Thought of typing down a lot of stuff since yesterday night,
hoping to find a ideal blogskin ASAP tat time,
so i can display my feeling out ASAP too.

Well, now i got the chance to post here le.
But i dono wat i want to say le.
mmm....

Anyway, back to my life.
2day is a Sat, originally i am not working today.
But yesterday Boss sent msg to mi,
saying tat e staff for sat shift is sick.
So i went to work, work till 2 pm.
(don't dare to work full day, cos promise dear tat i am
spending e day with him)

Around 2, dear came by to Bishan to "fetch" mii...
Lol. Cos he coming down from Ben's house at bedok.
So after i finish work, we go eat pasta mania. (Cant finish)

After tat, went back to dear de house to watch video.
LoL.
His grandparents were at his house (visit) tat time with his parents.
Hhahha...
So awkward, when his mum introduced mii to them as classmate.
Well, luckily they didnt say anything. haha...

Anyway, i got e chance to have curry dinner at dear de house.
cook by his mum, I love the taste. haha...
mmm... Spent my day with him without going out seems enough for both of us.

2moro both of us going work, haiz...
A poor pair of couple.
hahahahha...

But A happy couple too.
Hope dear tomoro not to tired after work,
haha... so tat he can come down again to accompany mii work.
If not, i am sure gona sleep during work de.
The crowd there is really very say. haiz....